I'm probably NOT alone in this. But sometimes I feel as if no one understands me. Well, I mean when I talk about certain aspects of my life. I think many people DO understand what I'm saying. I don't think I confuse people....too much. I think it's more that they.... I don't know how to say this? Maybe it's like they disagree with me? They think I'm misinterpreting things?
It's like I might say. That woman gave me a dirty look. Then my friend doesn't believe me. Why would she give you a dirty look? She didn't give you a dirty look. Do you think maybe you just imagined it? Or maybe she was giving someone else a dirty look, and not you.
And if they do think I happen to be understanding my situation in a realistic way; then it's usually a matter of well, it could be worse. Stop complaining. You're lucky to have what you have.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel highly invalidated in certain aspects of my life. I've tried to talk to so many people, and it's come to the point where I just give up.
So right when I decide to give up.....
I read The Spell Book of Listen Taylor. By the time I got to the end, I was thinking, Oh! Someone DOES understand how I feel. Reading that book was very cathartic for me, and it came into my life at the exact right time.
I love that books can do that for us. They can give us the chance to feel understood. They can make us feel less alone.
Yeah, it's a fictional person that I'm relating to. But where did the Jaclyn Moriarty get the idea for the character. Maybe she based it off her own experiences? Maybe she thought about a friend when writing the book So I bet there are people in the world who share my feelings and situations.
What if the fictional character was real? Would I be friends with her? Would our commonality bond us, or would we get into one of those competitive modes of I have it worse than you?
I ultimately chose a different path and solution than the character. Would this come between us? Would she not respect my choice? Would I look down at her choice?
I don't know.
In some ways, I think the best of friends are those who stay within the pages of a book. You can read about them, relate to them, learn from them, etc. But they can't look back and judge you. OR can they?????? (insert Twilight Zone music here).
Oh, and I do love my real life friends as well. I love them dearly. They bring huge amounts of joy to my life. I guess it's just in terms of leaning on someone when I feel troubled....books bring me more comfort. That's why I'm grateful to my parents for giving me a very generous Powells gift certificate.
Speaking of.....
I actually ordered more books yesterday. I went to read that interview regarding Alfred Deakin's spirituality. It turns out the guy being interviewed wrote a book, and Powells had it. I rarely buy nonfiction anymore, but I made an exception. I hope the book is fascinating, and I don't regret buying it.
It's like I might say. That woman gave me a dirty look. Then my friend doesn't believe me. Why would she give you a dirty look? She didn't give you a dirty look. Do you think maybe you just imagined it? Or maybe she was giving someone else a dirty look, and not you.
And if they do think I happen to be understanding my situation in a realistic way; then it's usually a matter of well, it could be worse. Stop complaining. You're lucky to have what you have.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel highly invalidated in certain aspects of my life. I've tried to talk to so many people, and it's come to the point where I just give up.
So right when I decide to give up.....
I read The Spell Book of Listen Taylor. By the time I got to the end, I was thinking, Oh! Someone DOES understand how I feel. Reading that book was very cathartic for me, and it came into my life at the exact right time.
I love that books can do that for us. They can give us the chance to feel understood. They can make us feel less alone.
Yeah, it's a fictional person that I'm relating to. But where did the Jaclyn Moriarty get the idea for the character. Maybe she based it off her own experiences? Maybe she thought about a friend when writing the book So I bet there are people in the world who share my feelings and situations.
What if the fictional character was real? Would I be friends with her? Would our commonality bond us, or would we get into one of those competitive modes of I have it worse than you?
I ultimately chose a different path and solution than the character. Would this come between us? Would she not respect my choice? Would I look down at her choice?
I don't know.
In some ways, I think the best of friends are those who stay within the pages of a book. You can read about them, relate to them, learn from them, etc. But they can't look back and judge you. OR can they?????? (insert Twilight Zone music here).
Oh, and I do love my real life friends as well. I love them dearly. They bring huge amounts of joy to my life. I guess it's just in terms of leaning on someone when I feel troubled....books bring me more comfort. That's why I'm grateful to my parents for giving me a very generous Powells gift certificate.
Speaking of.....
I actually ordered more books yesterday. I went to read that interview regarding Alfred Deakin's spirituality. It turns out the guy being interviewed wrote a book, and Powells had it. I rarely buy nonfiction anymore, but I made an exception. I hope the book is fascinating, and I don't regret buying it.