Monday, August 11, 2008

That Feeling

I once wrote down this dream on Livejournal. It involved flying and gardens--fun and beautiful things. I got a nice amount of comments--complimenting me on my fantastic dream.

But I commented back that the dream actually wasn't all that great. It SOUNDED great. It had all the elements of a fantastic dream. I didn't like it though. It didn't give me that FEELING.

What feeling?

I have no idea how to describe it or explain it.

Maybe it's like getting high on really good drugs. Although I'm never gotten high on any drugs, so I don't know if that analogy actually works or not.

I have a few dreams a year with a little twinge of the feeling. But I've had only about 4-5 dreams in my life with a major dose of the feeling.

One dream involved Anthony Hopkins throwing me into a pool. And I know that doesn't sound exciting or wonderful. But there was something about that dream. It had the feeling.

The dream with the most of the feeling is one I barely remember. I have a vague sense of eating breakfast. And a sense of a body of water--and a swimming race.

I don't remember when I even had the dream. All I really know is it totally had the feeling.

Then we watched Finding Nemo and the movie showed Sydney Harbor. It reminded me so much of my dream--where they had the swimming races.

And that was the other thing....besides being haunted by Julian McMahon, that made me obsessed with Australia.

I did Google research to find out if there were any swimming races in the harbor. There is one, but I don't know how old it is. Well, yeah because I thought maybe in a past life I swam in the race and that's why I'm now obsessed with Australia.

Honestly though. I don't go much for the past life theory too much. If I had been in Australia in a past life, who cares? Why would I need to go back there in this life?

I THINK what happened is I was supposed to be Australian in this life and someone messed up the paperwork.

Anyway, the most awesome thing is I just looked at the harbor race dates and it looks like it happens in the first week of March. We'll be in Sydney! I hope they don't change the dates because I would love to watch it.

Maybe it will make me feel like I'm in my dream.


  1. I once woke up in a complete state of terror and fear. I couldn't remember a single thing about the dream other than I was completely afraid of something.

    So I grabbed one of my cats and we watched Monsters Inc until I finally fell asleep again.

    I also have those waking up in your dream to realize that you are still in your dream. I will "wake up" 5 or 6 times before I actually wake up. I try to psycho analyze it but I'm not very good at it. Ultimately I think I just get stressed out and have weird dreams.

  2. I don't go for the past life thing either......... but sometimes I feel that I've gotten little glimpses or impressions of whats coming in this one........

  3. Darcy,

    I have had bad dreams like that too!! It's the same thing as the GOOD dreams. I can't really explain what was so bad about them. There was just something horrifying.

  4. Bettina,

    I believe in past lives. I just don't know what would be the point of obsessing over the location of our previous lives.

    If my past life was in Australia, why would I feel the need to go back? It was in the past.

    Personally, I believe Australia plays a part in my present and future. Not my past.

  5. Maybe it would be quicker and easier to just get some drugs?

  6. Laura,

    Do you have any you want to share?