Showing posts with label Neighbours. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Neighbours. Show all posts

Is Neighbours My Crystal Ball?

On Saturday, there was a knock at the door.

Tim answered it and then told me, We need to get out of the house now!

There was a gas leak next door.

It was exciting in that bond-with-your-neighbors-you-hardly-know way.

It was scary, because our cats were still in the house.

I mean we attempted to grab one and put him in the carrier but understood quickly it was a loss cause and went with hoping-for-the-best.

The best happened.

All was resolved in about twenty minutes.

What I heard is that someone hit the gas meter and then drove off.

This happened on Neighbours recently! 

Okay but not only that.  A day or two before, Tim had been telling me about a work related real estate drama. After he finished venting, I had started watching an episode of Neighbours and Toadie (Ryan Moloney) got a text with a very similar real estate drama.  

I think I should start seeing every storyline on Neighbours as a warning.



Sunflowers

The first summer we lived in our Carrollton house, one sunflower randomly grew in our front yard.  I was very delighted.



A photo of a large sunflower in the front yard of a suburb in Carrollton Texas
2022


In the fall, I collected some of the seeds and planted them in the backyard.  Which often equates to me throwing seeds into the air and hoping for the best.  

We ended up with about 5-7 big sunflowers.  Some were probably from the front sunflower and others were likely from bought seeds and/or uneaten bird/squirrel food. 



 
Sunflowers growing in a fenced backyard in Carrollton Texas
2023


In the Spring of 2024, many, many baby sunflowers started sprouting up.  

Young sunflowers growing in a backyard. The flowers haven't appeared yet.
2024



Though it's hard for me to do, I aborted quite a few of them.  

But we still ended up with a forest of sunflowers.


A backyard crowded with sunflowers
2024


It was beautiful but messy.

In terms of wildlife, it was wonderful.  Especially in terms of bees. 

In terms of being able to walk in our backyard...not so great.

In terms of Tim being able to move the lawnmower through the backyard to get to the front from the garage...not so great.

We got a stern letter from the HOA at one point.  I had to trim things down a bit.  Which I had planned to do anyway...as the weather got cooler.  Our HOA tends to have unpleasant timing.  

This next spring, I'm going to try to thin things out much more.  And I'm expecting a shitload of babies.

My aim is to have a small section of the yard crowded with sunflowers but have other areas where we can walk, let other things grow, etc.

As for the dead sunflowers, I've been working a lot to cut the remnants into small pieces, leaving them in the yard...rather than filling bags and bags and bags and bags of landscaping bags.  I love doing it.  It's a great thing to do while listening to audio books, podcasts, Neighbours, etc. 

Things I Watched in 2023

Here is my yearly list of things I watched via various streaming platforms...and in one very rare time, at the movie theater.

Red denotes shows or movies I disliked.

Blue denotes shows I especially loved.  Though sometimes I forget the love I felt if a lot of time has passed between watching the show and making the list. The love often fades.  More recent watchings are more likely to be blue.  

Never mind that.  I'm ending that part of my tradition.  It's too hard for me to decide whether or not I simply liked a show or whether I loved it.  

I've divided the shows by location...in terms of where it was set rather than where it was filmed.

Some shows might be listed for multiple places.

If you're interested, here is my list for 2017, 2020, 2021, and 2022 list.

One big thing I almost forgot to mention is I completely changed the way I do my to-watch list.

My old way involved having a limited number of spaces for shows/movies on the list—idea being I needed to finish and cross off a movie or show before adding something new.  

Now I'm using the same method I use for my author's list. There is no limit to the number of things on the list.  And before adding to the list, I don't take time to make sure it's not already on the list. 

I'm fine with things being on the list multiple times. Sometimes I actually purposely add things multiple time, so there will be more of a chance that Random.org will choose it for me. 

I was going to list which seasons of a show I've watched, but I've decided that's going to make the list too clunky and complicated.  I might do it sometimes.

Warning: I might have things wrong about the setting of the Marvel movies we watched.  My memory is muddled.  If any particular experts want to help by correcting me, I would feel appreciative and not offended. 

AUSTRALIA

Neighbours-Having Neighbours return, and be available for me to easily watch, was one of the top best things that happened to me this year. I've been watching the current episodes and slowly making my way through the provided Classic Neighbours episodes.  

All Saints-Every few years, Random.org gifts me with another season of this show.  I feel emotionally attached.  

Deadloch- This was one of the very rare times that Tim and I watched an Australian TV show together.  I almost quit after the first episode, because I misunderstood what it was. I thought it was supposed to be a parody of shows like Broadchurch.  I was picturing like a Naked Gun/Airplane kind of thing.  So watching the first episode, it just felt really off.  Like the show had failed at what it was trying to do.  Then I realized it was more of a drama-comedy-mystery.  Or a drama-mystery with comic relief characters.  After accepting the show for what it was supposed to be, I loved it.  

DENMARK

The Bear Only one episode.  That particular episode gave me a lot of anxiety and dread, because we had plans to go on a trip to Copenhagen, and I was extremely anxious about traveling.  But it all had a happy ending. I ended up having a wonderful time on the trip 

GERMANY

All the Light We Cannot See-Wasn't interested in this when my parents highly recommended it but then became interested when I saw an actor from Dark was one of the stars. 

Unorthodox-Inspired to watch this after watching Shira Haas in Bodies.  And I had also read the book this year and liked that a lot.  

I'm hoping Disney doesn't cave to pressure and that we'll be able to see Haas in the new Captain America movie.  

ISRAEL

Fauda- Currently watching this.  I've read reviews saying it's biased against Palestinians.  From what I've seen so far, it seems much less biased than I would have expected from an Israeli TV show about the conflict. 

I think it shows Palestinians in a very sympathetic way and sometimes shows Israelis in a quite negative way.  Really...all in all, it seems fairly sympathetic towards both sides.  

A pessimistic, judgmental side of me feels some reviewers would see this show as unbiased and fair only if all the the Israelis were shown as completely evil, heartless oppressive colonizers and the Palestinians as angelic, loving, innocent victims.  

ITALY

Mrs. Davies 

A Haunting in Venice- I liked the set design but besides that...didn't really love this one. 

JAPAN

Invasion 

NETHERLANDS

Ted Lasso-I loved that episode.  Though like The Bear's travel episode, this one also gave me anxiety, because of our upcoming trip.  Unlike some people I know, I don't continue to confuse the Danish with the Dutch.  However, it still made me think of our upcoming trip, because of the canal, Europe in general, etc.  

NORWAY-

Thor: Love and Thunder I forget where else it takes place. In the Metaverse? The Multiverse? Another Planet?  

SOUTH KOREA

Uncanny Counter 

Extraordinary Attorney Woo- I tried working on Korean by rewatching one of the episodes repeatedly.  Then I got tired of it and stopped.

Burning-Critics and reviewer people seemed to like this one much more than Tim and I did.  

Business Proposal-Fictional Australians seem to die tragically from being hit by a car while walking, standing, picking up someone else's bulk trash, etc.  Koreans seem to be in danger of losing their parents as children and teens via a car accident.  This is the case for this show, Uncanny Counter, and also Sweet Home.  Are there others I've forgotten?  

I should say that I've watched a teeny tiny fraction of the Korean dramas that are out there.  There may be a more common way for fictional Koreans to die.

UNITED KINGDOM

Black Mirror 

Ted Lasso-The ending gave me a lot of sadness in the same way The Good Place gave me a lot of sadness.  I mean sadness for the same type of reason.  

Invasion

Bodies-I liked this show a lot until I read about the massive differences to the comic book.  I really need to stop trying to compare books with shows.  It messes too much with my head when there are huge changes.  Especially if the changes are enormous.  With the TV series, time travel seemed very much to be the main point of the whole story.  Then I learn that time travel didn't play a part at all in the original material.

Coronation Street-This...and now Neighbours...are my constants.  I don't rely on Random.org to pick it for me.  I try hard to watch it every day that an episode is available to me.  

THE UNITED STATES

Lucifer-I love this show to the point that I sometimes feel stupid for allowing my viewing to be ruled so much by Random.org.  It's sad to consider that it may be twenty years later before I watch season 5.  On the other hand, I think I will feel a huge loss when I finish watching the show.  So, it's kind of nice living my life knowing I still have two seasons left to watch

Nashville- Speaking of....This one took me a long time to get back to.  There were some years between my watching season two and three.  Again, though, it's nice knowing I have more seasons left to watch.

Mythic Quest 

Crown Heights

Bosch

The Peripheral-I liked the idea of this more than the result.  

Only Murders in the Building-I love this show. It brings me a very happy kind of nostalgia to see Steve Martin and Martin Short.  

Parenthood- This was a hate-like show for me.  

It was the most offensive show dealing with autism I have ever seen.  It made my blood boil. It's as if someone took the infamous Autism Speaks promotional video and said, Hey, let's turn this into a TV show. But I liked the other aspects of the show and enjoyed seeing how it actually does connect to the movie. 

Yellow Jackets- I'm not sure where the plane crashed, though. 

This is Us- I love this show...and it's another one where I worry Random.org won't ever pick again for me but at the same time am glad I still have seasons left to watch.  

The Good Doctor

The Last of Us

Law and Order- I watched just a couple of episodes while staying at my parent's house for a few nights. 

The Wire-Rewatched a portion of the first episode when staying with my parents.  They hadn't seen it before, and I had wondered if they might like it.  

Chicago Med- Another show my parents shared with me.  

Crazy Ex-Girlfriend-Rewatched a couple of episodes with my parents.  My staycation at their house  was like a TV show Show and Tell kind of thing. They liked this show more than The Wire.  To be fair, I loved The Wire, but it took me several episodes before I got into it. 

Servent-I'm impressed that this show took a very dark and depressing subject and somehow turned it into a wild, fun, addictive roller coaster.  

Spiderman: No Way Home 

Avengers: Infinity War  

Avengers: EndGame

Bodies Bodies Bodies 

Beef-This was beautiful.  I wanted...needed it to end a certain way.  And it did.  So I was very satisfied with that.  

Werewolf by Night- I think?  Or did it take place elsewhere?  I can't remember.  I Googled and couldn't easily find the answer. 

The Magicians

From- I became somewhat obsessed with this show.  I love it but at the same time I worry it borrows from the worst qualities of Lost (which I love, love, love while at the same time recognizing its flaws) 

Mrs. Davies

13 Reasons Why 

The Brady Bunch- I added a lot of nostalgic stuff to my list...and old stuff I haven't ever watched. 

To really feel old school, I sometimes add these shows by individual seasons. Because in the past, we just watched things as they came along via syndication.  We didn't start with episode 1.  So with The Brady Bunch, I ended up with season 4.  The one with the Hawaii adventure.

The Wilds-I'm not sure where the island is supposed to be.  I forget.  Though I Googled and saw it was filmed in New Zealand.  

I watched this after watching the first season of Yellow Jackets and declared that I preferred it much more to Yellow Jackets.  But then we watched season two of Yellow Jackets and...well now it's about even.

Mario Bros

The Bear

Black Mirror

Invasion

The Afterparty-Tim and I enjoyed this one a lot.  The premise is a lot of fun and well-executed.  

What We Do in the Shadows- I like the storyline about Guillermo's new development 

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia- I liked this show but much less than Tim does.  But I watched only the first season.  Maybe if I watch more seasons, it will grow on me more.  

Ratched-I liked this, but I I have problems with sympathetic character who we know are doomed to become villains. I had the same feelings about Bates Motel.

A Knock at the Cabin

Haunted Mansion- I liked this much more than I expected to.  

Totally Killer

The Blackening

Renfield

Loki 

American Horror Story: Hotel- Tim often rewatches shows that I haven't seen yet.  This was one of the rare times that I rewatched a show that he hadn't seen yet.  

Upload 

Leave the World Behind

Unorthodox-

Barbie-We watched this a few nights ago, and I loved, loved, loved, loved, loved it.

The Fall of the House of Usher-This is what we're currently watching.  So far, neither Tim nor I are loving it.  But hopefully we will grow to like it as we get further in.  

The Guardians of the Galaxy Holiday Special-(eta) Tim and I watched this one Christmas Eve.  We both loved the songs and are wanting to listen to more music from the heroic Kevin Bacon and Old 97's.

 I had some confusion—some annoyed-confusion—over whether we were dealing with A) A Kevin Bacon from a universe in which The Avengers and other Marvel characters are real people known for saving the world B) A universe where The Avengers exist as fictional characters.  C)A universe in which Marvel Characters exist but are unknown by regular people.  

Kevin Bacon's initial reaction gave me the sense that it was the third option which didn't sit well with me.  BUT...thinking about it...even if we lived in a world where people with super human abilities existed and are known of by the general public, it wouldn't mean these people would be commonplace.  And if some unusual beings came to our door, we might assume they were people in costume.  

Party Down (eta) The existence of this show scares me, because it has quite a few well-known actors and seems fairly well-liked.  Yet I've never heard of it.  

And I'm someone who spends a lot of time on IMDb.  

No, I don't think something supernatural is going on.  It's just...for me...evidence...that there's way too much content out there.  It's impossible to keep up.  That would be okay...except I have major FOMO when it comes to TV shows.  

The Other Two (eta)

LOCATION UNKNOWN 

The Menu-I found aspects of this offensive but also found it somewhat interesting and entertaining.  

From

NOT EARTH 

The 100 - Watched season 2.  It had been a long time since I watched season 2, so it took me awhile to get into it and to care about the characters again.  But once I did, I enjoyed it.  

Avengers: Endgame

Solo: A Star Wars Story 

Foundation-Tim offered to rewatch with me, because he liked it a lot.  I was unable to get into it, I dropped out.

Black Mirror-

The Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 3

The Guardians of the Galaxy Holiday Special 

MULTIVERSE

(I struggled labeling this, because technically speaking all fiction happens in not-our-universe

Spiderman: No Way Home 

Avengers: Infinity War (I think?  I kind of forget, actually) 

Spiderman: Across the Spiderverse-I would have probably liked this more if I had seen the first movie, before going to the theater to watch this. Speaking of, I think this was actually the one time that Tim and I saw a movie at an actual theater this year.  Jack had invited us to go.  I think movie-going has become something we do only when it offers us a chance to go on a field trip with our child. 

Loki

MYSTICAL PLACE 

Black Panther: Wakanda Forever- I liked the ending with the song much more than I liked the rest of the movie. 

House of Dragon-Tim and I had to really struggle to get ourselves to like this. We managed to sort of like it by the end but not enough to want to watch any future seasons of it.  

I can imagine that for huge fans of the Westeros universe, the show might have been satisfying.  But for me, it didn't ease my longing for Game of Thrones.  It just made me feel confused and frustrated.  The characters are just too distant from the GOT characters.

It's like...would a show about the great-great-great-great-great grandparents of Monica and Ross satisfy people who miss watching Friends?

Thor Raganok 

The Magicians 

Mario Bros 

Dungeons and Dragons-This movie does a good job of being accessible to those of us who never played the game.

Lost-I totally forgot I watched this (season 3) until looking at my records.  Which is strange, because I'm actually playing around with writing a novel about a fan of Lost. 

By playing around I mean I'm doing research, taking notes, creating character and family bios, etc. with no huge desire to actually write the novel.  

I'm having fun with the journey, though.  If I think about it as a waste of time, I tell myself it's similar to playing Minecraft or Sims.  It's just about having fun with my imagination and my love of researching.  

Yes, I'd rather have a finished product, and I'd want that finished product to be read and liked by others.  But if it's not read and if I don't even write it...that's all okay too.  

Thor: Love and Thunder-I'm struggling here, trying to remember if it would also fit into the multiverse.  Maybe all The Avengers movies do?  

The Santa Clauses- See? Tim Allen was not fired from Disney for not being Woke enough or too white. I've never actually seen the movies.  But I liked the show. A little bit.  It was corny but enjoyable.

ONLINE

The Peripheral 

Upload 

MULTIPLE LOCATIONS

How to be a Tyrant-One of the few documentaries I watched 

Lost-

Invasion

Behind the Attraction-Another documentary.  We watched only...I think two episodes?  I liked it at first but then I felt it got old after awhile. It was probably less about the subject matter and more about the format?   

Well....

That's it for now.  I will probably add shows/movies that I watch in the last few weeks.  


Read my novel: The Dead are Online 


Watching the Safe Haven Documentary (Part 2)

You might want to start with Part 1.

For an index of my Nazi/Holocaust related posts, click here.  


I'm now at 9:21 of the documentary (out of 57:23)

There was a push from a columnist, the War Refugee Board, and probably others (hopefully) to save many refugees.

FDR wasn't on board with that, but he was willing to let in 500-1000 refugees as a token gesture.

* * *

Now the documentary is showing a woman named Sharon Lowenstein.  She wrote a thesis about the refugee center in Oswego.  I guess it was turned into a book, because they show an image of a book. It's called Token Refugee. 

Lowenstein says there was a plan...or desire of a plan.... to open up camps all over the country.  Instead of death camps, they would be refugee camps. And they wanted to save tens or, better yet, hundreds of thousands of people targeted by the Nazis.

Roosevelt nixed that plan and offered the one camp instead.

* * *

Southern Italy was liberated from the Nazis.  In June 1944, a lot of refugees fled to the area.  This is where Roosevelt picked out a few lucky Jews to get his golden ticket.

Now the documentary is showing Ruth Gruber. She wrote a book about Oswego.  She had also been personally involved. First of all, she herself was Jewish.  Second, she was an assistant to someone named Harold Ickes.  He was Secretary.  

Secretary of what?  

Lord Wiki says he was Secretary of the Interior.  

* * *

Reading about Ickes....

He seems like a fairly decent guy.

He was against segregation and desegregated the cafeteria and restrooms in his department.  And his department included National Parks.

Though he didn't have the courage to protest Japanese internment camps, he did quietly complain about it in his diary.

He also suggested offering Alaska as a refuge for Jews fleeing the Holocaust.  It wasn't a state yet, so there was the idea that it didn't have to follow usual quotas.

Would the Alaskans already living there be okay with a large influx of Jews?

I'm sure some would.

I'm sure others would not.

And I'm sure some Jews would be respectful newbies while others, with a sense of entitlement, might try to take over.

Anyway...as many of us already know, this plan didn't end up happening.

Lord Wiki says most American Jews were opposed to the plan.  

I'm trying to decide if this is a rabbit hole I should go down now or wait for a future post.

Well...I think I'll go for the future post option.

For now, I'll just say Lord Wiki says it was Rabbi Stephen Wise who led the Jewish opposition to the plan, saying that it would give the hurtful impression that Jews were taking over a portion of the country for settlement.

Interesting.

I wonder if he ever came to regret that opinion.

* * *

Ruth Gruber says:

While America was selecting that thousand, Adolf Eichmann in Hungary had begun the selection in April of 1944. Late April.  Now it was July of 1944, and he had already selected 550,000 Jews to be burned in Auschwitz. And America was selecting 1000 for life in our country.

It's strange how this country feels there is enough room for accidental/unwanted embryos but not enough room for refugees.

By the way, Gruber was the person sent over to help make the selections.  

I can imagine she's haunted by the memory of those she didn't choose. 

Three thousand Jews applied.  So it was a 1/3 ratio.

The documentary says 100 escapees/survivors of the concentration camps were chosen. They were top priority; then came the very young and very old.  With that, I'm getting the idea they were taking the most fragile...perhaps with hope the others might survive without assistance from the United States. 

They also kept families together.

So it does seem that there were at least good intentions with who was chosen....I mean compassionate intentions.  

It wasn't a matter of merit or exploitation—let's see who can offer the most to our country.

I mean if you're dealing with people who want to emigrate...just for the joy of it.  Like when I wanted to move to Australia...yeah, then merit can and should play a part.

But when it comes to people needing refuge, it shouldn't be about who might be the most useful.

* * *

Gruber says that when the refugees boarded the ship to America, many of them did not have shoes.

They wore rags.

Many of them had no belongings, because they had been on the run for so long.

And I'm not sure what sort of souvenirs people can grab from a concentration camp.

* * *

Robert Clary (the narrator of the documentary) talks about the form the Jews were forced to sign upon getting on the ship.

They had to show that they understood that they were guests and that their stay was temporary. When the war was over, they were supposed to go back.

That's pretty unwelcoming.

A) Do people often want to go back to the country that caused such horrific trauma to their family?

B) It's hard to feel settled and peaceful when we know our stay is temporary.  

* * *

Gruber actually went on the ship with the refugees.  She was there for their journey. She asked them to tell her their stories, so she could report back to Roosevelt.

Some people are willing to be the listeners. They are willing to be witnesses. They are willing to let people unload.

Others cry out:  No trauma dumping!

Although I think there are (rare) times where the term trauma-dumping is merited...I think in many cases, it's just a replacement for phrases such as Save your drama for your mama or Positive Vibes Only.

Instead of making blanket rules against trauma dumping, it's probably best to give people the tools to be able to say, I'm sorry.  But because of my particular life history, hearing about this is very traumatic for me.  I can't handle it.

There's a big difference between reading: Please No Trauma Dumping!

And....

A Holocaust survivor telling the victim of a later genocide.  I'm sorry. I know you need someone to talk to.  But my family was killed in the Holocaust, and I can't handle hearing about it.

I suspect, though, as the No Trauma Dumping phase continues to pick up in popularity, it will be used more often by privileged people wanting to keep things light than it will be used by traumatized people unable to bear more trauma.

I just remembered I wrote a post about this a few years ago!  It was in reaction to a storyline on Neighbours, before I had even heard of the phrase trauma-dumping.

I'm glad to see that 2015-Dina agrees very much with 2022-Dina.

When we disagree...sometimes that causes me cognitive dissonance.  

* * *

I wonder if 2048-Dina will agree?  (Hi!  If you're reading this!).

* * *

I'm going to take a pause and go take a shower.  Then we will probably eat dinner while watching Extraordinary Attorney Woo.

Then I'll get back to the video and my learning and my rambling.

If anyone is keeping track, I'm now on 15:32 out of 57:23.

* * *

I'm back.

It's the next day.

I'm getting back to watching.

Robert Clary breaks down the composition of the refugees.

I'm not sure if composition is the right word?

Anyway....

874 were Jewish.

73 were Catholic

28 were Russian or Greek Orthodox.

7 were Protestant.

I guess that would be just religious composition.

Did they not get any Romani or homosexuals?

Though I'm sure some of the rescued were LGTBQ.  Probably closeted.

In terms of national origin, the biggest group was from Yugoslavia.  

What has Yugoslavia become?

I forget these things.

According to this website, it has become Slovenia, Croatia, Bosnia and Herzegovina, Serbia, Montenegro, Kosovo, and Republic of Macedonia.  

Though that map is from 2008. Has it changed since then?

Oh! That website is actually the United States International Tribunal for the Former Yugoslavia.  

I'm guessing it deals with war crimes.  

When was that Bosnian war?

Googled:  It was 1992-1995.

* * *

I would have hoped and expected that the Jewish people on the refugee ship would have gotten along.  They shared a religion, a history, and an enemy.

But the documentary says they did not. They divided by nation of origin.

Oh Clary (or the writer) agrees with me.  He says, All this despite the fact that all of them were victims of the Nazis.

I wonder about people in refugee camps, centers, etc. these days.  Do people often stick to the people from their own countries of origin?  Is there a lot of conflict between groups?

* * *

The ship arrived in the New York area on August 3, 1944.

A survivor talks about seeing the Statue of Liberty...and in her interview, decades later, she gets emotional.

Another survivor says he can't describe his feelings and that's why he writes music.  I imagine writing music is a super effective way of processing emotions.

Gruber says that the passengers all rushed to the rails and a rabbi asked to say a prayer.

It sounds like a scene from a movie.

He said a prayer of survival which...now that I'm hearing it.... I think it is also one of the prayers we say for Chanukah.

I'm wondering if on Chanukah we are praying for OUR survival or the survival of the oil/candles?

* * *

I'm looking at a website called Kveller for the Chanukah prayers.

The Shehecheyanu (the one the rabbi said on the ship) is said on the first night of Chanukah only.

It's translated as: Praised are You, Our God, Ruler of the universe, Who has given us life and sustained us and enabled us to reach this season.

I'm not sure I knew what that prayer was about or that it could be used for other occasions. 

 I'm glad to have learned it today.  

* * *

The next stop for the refugees was Hoboken New Jersey.

How far is that from Manhattan?

Really. I just want an excuse to look at Google Maps.

Oh.

It's right across from Manhattan.

The documentary says the refugees were ferried across.

Is there still a ferry?

I really should know more about New York geography.

Oh!!!!

It's the Lincoln Tunnel that gets you from Manhattan to Hoboken.

I think I will always associate the Lincoln Tunnel with The Stand.

Google Maps has Street View in the tunnel.  So you can play The Stand in your imagination.

Now I'm sitting here wondering....why was that scene scary?  It wasn't like there were any zombies.

Dead-dead bodies seem really tame when you compare them to zombies.

Or did something supernatural happen?

Did someone have a hallucination?

* * *

I can't tell if I'm actually moving through the tunnel, or if it's just the same scene repeated.


* * *

I was moving!

I got to the exit.

Or entrance?

Am I on the New Jersey side or Manhattan?

* * *

New Jersey.

This is SO fun.

And this is why I look for excuses to play on Google Maps.

I should get back to the documentary.

* * *

In Hoboken, the refugees were deloused which involved showers and separations of husbands and wives.  This was terrifying, because showers and forced separations were cornerstones of the Nazi concentration camp experience.

Were the people running the refugee program not aware of the shower and separation trauma?  Or were they lacking sensitivity?

Of course, showers had to happen.  But it probably could have done without separating the men and women.

Well...I guess they wouldn't just throw men and women together in the shower.  It would probably taken too long to allow each couple a private shower together.

I don't know.

Maybe it had to be done that way.

Hopefully, there was compassion and understanding, though.

* * *

After Hoboken, that evening, the refugees were put on a train and taken to Oswego.  

The trains, too, were bad-memory triggers.

The train stopped at Fort Ontario on the morning of August 5.

Looking at the Time and Date website.

August 3 would have been a Thursday in 1944.  

So on Thursday, they arrived, took the Ferry to Hoboken, had the scary showers/delousing, and then got on a train.

August 5 is Saturday. So I guess it was a pretty long train ride.

Were there bathrooms on the train?

Did they stop somewhere to go to the bathroom?

* * *

When the refugees arrived at their new home, they were upset to see that there was a high barbed wire fence.

A survivor named Leon Levitch says, Why?  Why us? We are the victims of the Nazis. Why should they put us in the barbed wire?

It's kind of like someone kept prisoner by a serial killer.  The police find them.  They're rescued.  They think they're going to be given a lot of attention and TLC.  Then instead, they're thrown in a prison cell.

The feelings that go along with those stories seem so familar to me.

I think it's probably what happens to Black people on a fairly regular basis.

Or at least...that whole thing of them being in danger or a victim of crime. They call the police, and instead of being rescued, they're questioned in a hostile manner and/or arrested.

I want to imagine that despite the roughness of the situation—the delousing, the separating of men and women, the train wire, the barbed wire...that the humans taking care of the refugees were much softer.  I hope most of them were warm and welcoming instead of hostile.

* * *

The barbed wire was not put there for refugees.

It had been up before.

The fort was over a century old—built in 1755.  It played a part in the Revolutionary and Civil War.

Soldiers once slept in what had now become the home of the refugees.

The documentary says the refugees weren't very interested in the history. They didn't want to be in what they saw as a prison.

They protested.

I wonder how many right-wing, anti-immigration Jews know about Safe Haven. Would they support the Jews being put behind barbed wire?

How would they feel knowing that the Jewish refugees protested?

* * *

The documentary includes an interview with the shelter director—Joseph Smart.

He says the refugees felt that they had been misled in Italy.  They thought they were coming to America as honored guests.

I would have expected to be an honored guest if I survived a horrific ordeal.

But I think that rarely happens for refugees.

I am wondering, though...if they had known what had awaited them, would they have said: No thank you.

I doubt it.

I am torn between two sides of myself.

Side A:  Beggars can't be chosen.  They should just be happy and grateful to be safe and away from the Nazis.

Side B:  People who escape horrific trauma should be treated like royalty.  They should get comforts and treats.

I know this is probably highly inappropriate but right now I'm wondering how the Oceanic Six were treated when they got rescued.

I can't remember.

I vaguely remember them being interviewed.

* * *

Smart had also worked in the Japanese concentration camps of World War II.

He wasn't happy with that role and then thought Oswego would be a chance to redeem himself

He says that instead he found himself running yet another small concentration camp.

I have added, Smart to my list of post ideas, by the way.

* * *

The refugees had no papers.

All they had was a tag they wore that read "Excess Baggage."

Uh...ouch.

A survivor says, We had become excess baggage in a very real way.  People didn't want us. We were excess.  We were disposed of—at least that was our experience for several years.

That makes me sad. And scared. And worried.

Because there are so many refugees.

And there will be more and more.

No. I'm not scared of the refugees.

I'm scared of all the shitty people who want to keep refugees out of their countries

*.* * 

Now I'm onto the breakfast scene.

Again, I'm torn.

A part of me is sad that these people are in a concentration camp.

Another part of me is thinking...this reminds me of summer camp!

I love summer camp....like in an idyllic memory kind of way.

* * *

Okay.

Good news.

It sounds like the breakfast was plentiful.

A survivor says she had seven eggs.

And there's also mention of bread and cereal.

There's just something so wonderful about camp breakfast...waking up, getting dressed...people wearing sweatshirts because it's a bit chilly.  

I guess it's kind of like a cruise breakfast.

But I think camp is better.

I'm not good at having strong scent memories.  But one of the ones I sort of have...and strongly.... is the smell and feel of my old camp sleeping bag.

* * *

Is there a camp for autistic people I can work at?

It would have to be one that is actually autistic friendly and not some kind of intervention thing.

It would, of course, have to welcome autistic adults as staff.

When I worked at a Cystic Fibrosis camp...no, I don't have CF.  But there were counselors and counselors-in-training who had CF.  I think it would be insulting not to.  And same goes for Autism.

* * *

It's over 24 hours later.

I haven't been back on my laptop all day.

I come back and see autism stuff instead of Holocaust stuff.

Because I started researching autism camps yesterday.

But now camp feels like a really bad idea for me.

I don't think it would work with my OCD/contamination issues.

Also...I don't think I want to be a counselor.

I'd rather be one of the campers.

* * *

I feel I should add that it has crossed my mind how (extra) difficult refugee situations would be for me with my OCD.

Or any disaster situation.

Recently, I imagined being on the Lost island and how it would bother me...all these people going to the bathroom and not being able to wash their hands.

Or maybe the ocean with the salt water would appease me?

I'm not sure.

I'm very big on soap.

* * *

If it were a zombie apocalypse, there'd be no worries.

I'm a very slow runner.  

I don't think my zombie-self would have OCD.

* * *

Getting back to the documentary....

* * *

Shit.

The documentary, for some reason, started back at 0:00.

But it's not too much of a shit.  Because I had written down above where I left off!

I had just done that to display how long it's taking me to get through a documentary...because I interrupt so much.   I guess it turns out there was another purpose to it all.

A side benefit.  

* * *

I was wrong.

I wrote the time stamp the time before last...not the last time I watched.

Oops.

But I did write down the scene I was on.

Breakfast.

So I should be able to find that pretty easily.

* * *

I have found the breakfast scene.

Breakfast included bananas.

I had paused, the other day, before hearing that.

* * *

Visitors from the area came to visit the refugees.

I was bracing for stories of antisemitism and xenophobia.  But so far, it's positive.  The people were friendly and brought gifts.  

Now they're talking about a survivor named Adam Munz. He was seventeen at the time of arrival.  There was a recreation hall with ping pong paddles and table but no balls.

I imagine the missing ball thing happens at a lot of refugee centers, schools, community centers, etc.

Anyway, this is sweet.

Munz had a dime.  He asked a resident of Oswego to buy him some ping pong balls, and the person came back with three.

Oh!  Now it's gone from a heart-warming story to a comedy.

Munz messed up his newbie English.  He meant to show gratitude by saying You're a big ace but instead said You're a big ass.

Fortunately, the big ass/ace had a good sense of humor about it....was understanding.

* * *

The documentary talks about how the news of the refugees was overshadowed by news of war-fighting in Europe.

In Oswego, the news was on page 12 of the newspaper.

The refugees were quarantined for a month for health issues.

Some (most?) of the refugees were frustrated with this, because they wanted to go out and visit relatives who already lived in the United States.

They wanted to be FREE.

With this, I'm more on the side of the government.  I'm probably somewhat influenced by Covid.  But...I think even without that storyline in all our lives, I think I'd still be pro-quarantine.

Yeah. I would be.

Because when it was Johnny Depp's dogs vs. Australian quarantine, I was totally on Australia's side.

All that being said...the Oswego people were separated not by Plexiglas and masks but by a chain-link fence.

That's not a very impressive quarantine.

I think the documentary wants me to be angry that families had to share news of tragedy through this fence.  But while I'm not okay with the tragedy, I'm not outraged by the delivery.  These days we get bad news via Facebook, Instagram, texts, emails, etc.

I'm not complaining about that either.

Bad news is bad news no matter how it's delivered.

Well...I take that back.  I think it's preferable NOT to get bad news via social media.

* * *

This is really jumping around.

But I've had an uncomfortable thought that's been plaguing me.

The uncomfortable thought is that I might have been wrong about something in my last post.

I had written about how us Earthlings are usually not good at saving people from genocide.  Yeah. Some folks get saved.  But I thought most were left to perish.

Then the other day I listened to a Washington Post editorial about how Germany has gone from really shit to extraordinarily awesome.  And they mentioned Germany taking in a million or so Syrian Refugees.

I don't know what percentage of Syrian refugees have been saved from the Syrian crisis.  But a million refugees....that's pretty good.  I think?  It's better than 982.

And maybe we've done okay as well?

How many Syrians have come here?

Well...Lord Wiki says it was 300,000 in Germany not a million.  I might have misheard the editorial.  Or maybe it's gone up since Lord Wiki did his research.

As for the United States, Statista says between 2015-2017 around 22,000 Syrian refugees were let in.  

From 2018-2021, less than a thousand a year have been brought in.

Lord Wiki says that Donald Trump suspended Syrians finding refuge here with an executive order.

I don't know if that order still stands or if there are just less refugees needing a home now.

I'm ignorant when it comes to the Syrian refugee crisis.

Sorry.

* * *

Although Europe and the United States have taken in a number of Syrian refugees...Turkey and other Middle Eastern countries took in much more.

Turkey has taken in at least 3.5 million.  But all this involves lots of political drama that I'm not going to learn about right now.

* * *

Getting back to the documentary,

The Jews in Oswego started a synagogue in the camp and set up a Kosher kitchen.

That's good.

My heart was feeling warm and hopeful.  Then Ruth Gruber reminded me that it wasn't all sunshine and lollipops, because these rescued Jews had family back in Europe.  So they weren't just balancing the relief of being rescued with disgruntlement over their new home.  They were also dealing with grief and the not-knowing if their loved ones back in Europe were dead or alive.

A few weeks after the refugees arrived in Oswego, they held a wedding.  Two of the occupants had fallen in love while fleeing the Nazis.

The quarantine ended on September 1.  So that was a little less than month.

The documentary says that 5000 people came to visit.

All in one day?

I wonder if most were relatives or friends.

How many were just curious and/or friendly neighbors?  

Did people just freely arrive?  Did they have to sign up and get approval?

I'm sitting here asking questions that the documentary might answer if I unpause it and give them a chance.

* * *

The refugees were given some added freedoms.

They could leave the camp.  But they had to have a pass; they couldn't leave Oswego; and they had to return in six hours.

I think that's better than what people in detention centers get these days.

Yeah.

Snopes says that yes refugees are allowed to leave detention centers.  They're not prisoners.  If they want to leave, all they have to do is walk out.

And return to their original countries.

How generous we've become.

Oh.  And escaping a detention center is akin to escaping prison.

Also...skimming this for now.

But migrants have to pay for their own airfare to get out.

So even if they wanted to get back to their original country, that might be impossible.

Might is probably an understatement.

I imagine most refugees and migrants are lacking the funds needed.

*.* *

Back to Oswego 1944....

The children were allowed to go to school.  Some of the adult refugees enrolled in a teacher's college.

What is education like for today's refugees in the United States?

This government site says: 

Currently, there are over 4.7 million foreign born individuals enrolled in pre-kindergarten to postsecondary education, representing 6% of the total student population. Another 20 million students are the children of foreign born parents.

As a nation of immigrants, America has benefited from the vitality and enthusiasm brought to its shores by those seeking a better life. Successful immigrant and refugee integration efforts build the capacity of schools and early learning programs, communities, organizations, and other stakeholders to support the civic, linguistic, and economic integration of immigrants.

That's good.  I like that.

What about children in detention centers? 

How many kids are in detention centers?

*.* *

The National Council of State Legislatures says that in 2019, unaccompanied 69,488 children were in detention centers.

Lord Wiki says the NCSL is nonpartisan.  But they don't seem very Trump supporting...at least not in their page about detained children.

As for the kids, I wonder how many came into the United States without adults and how many were separated from their adults.

And what happens to families who come together and are not separated.  Are they all put in detention together?  For how long?  Where do they go afterward?

* * *

I'm going to read this long article about migrants in Politico.  

The beginning reminds me somewhat of the people in the Safe Haven Documentary.

A family of three kids escaped Venezuela and imagined they were going to find....a place where they would finally be free from hunger and police harassment and could simply be kids.

Instead when they came to the United States, they found very harsh conditions.

Politico says they slept on cement floors in cold cinder block cells.  

Federal court rulings have said children may not be held in border patrol facilities for more than 72 hours.  But the article says more than 220,000 kids have been held longer than what's supposed to be allowed.

How much longer?

Well...even if it was less than 72 hours...even if it was four or five hours.  It's a horrible way to be welcomed into a country.

The thing is, a lot of people do NOT want migrants to feel welcomed.

That attitude is pretty understandable when coming hundreds of years ago from Native Americans.  It's not understandable coming from people who have parents, grandparents, great-grandparents, etc. that were immigrants.  

* * *

Sorry. I'm going to jump subjects here.  But just know...that what I wrote above made me think of this.

I struggle to understand people who are angry that the Biden Administration is helping people with their college loans.  Some argue that it's not fair, because they didn't have this kind of help when they were paying off their loans.

For now...I'm just going to ignore the fact that college has become so much more expensive than it was back in those olden days.

But I thought of an analogy from my own life.

I listen to this autism podcast with these super neurodivergent-affirming therapists, and it makes me wish that I had these therapists when I was young. 

I sometimes envy the children getting diagnosed these days who have had this level of support.  

But I'm not going to sit around pouting and saying, I didn't get support for my autism when I was a child, so that's how it should be for all kids now and forever.

I think we can wish we had something we didn't. I think we can envy those who are getting what we didn't get.  But at the same time, we can be glad things are changing for the better.

Note:  These therapists I wish I had are unfortunately still probably in the minority.  Autism therapy is still often about helping children overcome autism rather than learning to live with it and embrace it.  

* * *

Getting back to the Politico article

The article says, In recent years, public reports of child detentions by the Border Patrol included only unaccompanied minors, omitting tens of thousands of children in families.

I do feel I hear more about unaccompanied children.

So....

Trump enacted something called Title 42 Emergency Order.  This is where the government can immediately expel people who crossed the border without authorization/permission.  The reasoning was to help keep Covid out.

Biden took office.  He asked for unaccompanied children to be exempt—let them stay.  But children in families weren't offered the same refuge.

Biden tried to lift Title 42.   A judge in Louisiana put a halt to his lifting.

I vaguely remember hearing about that.

I'm not sure what's going on with it these days.

* * *

Politico has a graphic with the detention center statistics.

Two centers are in California.

Two are in Arizona.

Five are in Texas.

I wonder what's the closest to us.  Well...because we live in Texas.

It's in....

Big Bend Texas which is about 2 hours and 45 minutes south-west of us.

In the Big Bend Texas Border Control Facility, 27% of the detainees are children.  

The average amount of time that kids stay there is 58 hours.

Twenty percent of the kids stay for over 72 hours.

I think the treatment in the center is more important than the length.

I mean not that I think it would be good for kids to be stuck in there for months or years.  

But if it were a decent place, I don't think it would be a problem for kids to be in there for 72 hours or....72 days.

The conditions, though, are far from decent.

Some of the shitty things listed in the article.

A) Children being cursed and yelled at

B) Children being kicked and shoved.

C) Stale food and food that made kids sick

D) Sick kids not given medical care

E) Toilets and showers lacking privacy

F) Kids kept in dirty clothing.

G) Very cold air-conditioning.  (since running AC is expensive, it makes me wonder if this is purposely used as a form of torture/punishment)

The detention centers kind of lay in the middle of Nazi death camps and the Safe Haven in Oswego.

OR...at least of what I know of Oswego so far.

But Oswego seems pretty decent compared to what people today are getting in Texas, Arizona, and California.

* * *

Now the article returns to the family from the beginning.

Two sisters were put in a cell.  It had a dirty sink and a toilet with no privacy.  It was just there in the middle where other migrants could watch them using the bathroom.

Another family's experience:

A teen girl developed a sore throat, cough, and headache. During the pandemic. She was told medication wasn't available and also, in a dismissive way, told she wouldn't die.

For five days, they had no toothbrush and no shower.

* * *

The excuse that some conservatives use for not wanting more brown people in their country is that these migrants are opportunists and not legitimate asylum seekers.

They might say escaping government persecution is different than simply wanting a life improvement.

But I'm not sure why people would put their lives and the lives of their family in danger just so they can achieve a bit of upward mobility.

Nope.

As the Politico article explains.  It's more likely things like rise in gang violence and parents worrying their teens will be forced to join.

Hurricane damage.

Drought.

Political and economic instability.

It's very much not like me wanting to move to Australia, because I love the accents and feel some kind of spiritual connection.  And wild parrots are super cool. 

 * * *

One little complaint/disagreement I have with the mindset of this Politico article is there's this idea that the border facilities should be improved for children.

But...uh....

Maybe they need to be improved for the adults as well??

To be fair, though. The person writing the article...people (Anna Flagg and Julia Preston) probably care very much about adults.  But they're probably trying to reach people whose hearts are chilled towards brown and Black immigrants. 

I wonder if anyone tried to plea for the Jews in Europe that way.  Yes. I know you think Jews are vermin—dangerous, controlling, money hungry.  But some of them are just innocent little children!  

Note: I should mention that the article was actually written for an organization called The Marshall Project.  And they gave permission to Politico to reprint it.  I saw that before and then forgot; but was reminded when I looked for the names of the writer.  

* * *

Ah...some good news.

Border Patrol has begun hiring cleaning staff, medical staff, and childcare assistants.  

Hopefully they're hiring decent people and not abusive ones.

They're also providing some laundry rooms and play spaces.

Hopefully also decent showers and toilets.

I think we can find a compromise between open borders and abusive, unwelcoming prison-like centers.

* * *

Getting back to the Jews (and others) in 1944 Oswego.  

I lost my place again in the video.

I don't think I got far past the breakfast scene.

I think Robert Clary was talking about education.

That got me down a rabbit hole towards education for migrants today.

Now I'm realizing I never made it to my intended destination.

I'm not up to going back down that rabbit hole.

Maybe I'll run into it another day.  On purpose or on accident.

* * *

Now we're running into some antisemitism.

Ralph Faust, the principal of the high school in Oswego, wanted the president of the student council to give a welcoming speech.

The president objected to it. His feeling was that the refugees shouldn't be in the school nor the community without the school or community improving of it first.

I imagine this is one of those tricks where you hide your bigotry behind a dislike of big government.  Instead of openly saying, I hate Jews and think they should stay and die in Europe, you pretend your grievance is with the Federal Government not asking permission of the local government.  

One of the survivors is asked if she encountered antisemitism.  She said she didn't.  And for any that happened (not to her personally) she says, I don't know that it was really antisemitism, or anti-foreigners, or anti a lot of people suddenly invading this peaceful little town.

She's more generous than me.

But I think she has a point.

I think we can assume antisemitism too easily.  But we can also make the opposite mistake and overlook it.

This goes for all kinds of bigotry.

Going back to modern immigration.  If someone wants to greatly limit immigration, I'm likely to assume they're racist.  But if I learn more about them and learn they're equally intent on pushing back white immigrants (which are often called expats) and they're pushing for better access to birth control and abortion I'm going to rethink my assessment and decide they're fighting against over-population.

* * *

Eleanor Roosevelt visited the Oswego shelter six weeks after the refugees arrived.

She was not happy that the refugees were being kept behind a fence. AND...

She did NOT wear a jacket that said, I Really Don't Care.  Do U?

A survivor is asked if he thinks Mrs. Roosevelt scolded her husband about this when she got home. He says yes and that he thinks the president probably just ignored her.

I can relate to trying to advise a powerful man and having my advice swiftly ignored or vetoed.  Not that I'm delusional enough to believe ALL my advice is correct.  But it gets to the point where I have to wonder if my advice is deliberately vetoed BECAUSE I'm a woman.  Or it could be that powerful men need to feel that they're the ones laying down the law.

I'm rambling about this and the Roosevelt story is all imagined. She might not have even mentioned it upon returning to the White House.

* * *

I think I'm going to stop here and then continue at 34:00 of 57:23 in part 3.

Hopefully, I can get the last 20 minutes into one post and there won't be a part 4.

Strange...I just had a strong dream flash when writing the above sentence.

I think I've mentioned these before.....

Yes...found it.  


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I have this dream thing.

I'm wondering if it happens to a lot of other people?

Does it happen to ANYONE else?

I guess it would.

It seems impossible that I'm the only one in the whole world.

What happens is when I do certain actions-sometimes mundane-it brings up a memory of a particular dream.

It's like I have a memory flash.

And each action has a certain dream attached to it.

When I deal with my dandruff issue, I have flashes of a Harry Potter related dream.

When I cut my toenails, I have flashes of dream that involved The Exorcist.

When I do certain types of algebra, I have flashes of a dream that involved Bates Motel. I think it's when fractions are involved? Maybe. 

And sometimes when I do my French lessons on Duelingo, I have flashes of a certain dream. I'm not sure what, though.  

It might involve Neighbours.  

And I think the French lesson involves talking about shaving. Well, that's what flashed in my mind when I was writing this down.

I'm not sure why this happens or why I have those particular associations.  

Did my dream self clip her toenails in The Exorcist dream?

Or maybe the day after the dream, I clipped my toenails, and while doing that, I suddenly remembered the dream. Maybe the association got stuck in my brain?  

If it ends up that I DO have epilepsy, I'll probably try to credit that for the phenomena. 

Well...anyway.

It's strange. But I don't mind it.

I like remembering my past dreams...even if it's only in flashes.  



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Hannah Ellis Ryan

Coronation Street now has an Australian character played by an Australian actress.

The character's name is Hannah, AND the actress's name is Hannah.

The character is cruelly conning Liz McDonald (Beverly Callard)  into believing she's Liz's deceased daughter. Hopefully the real Australian Hannah isn't doing the same thing to someone.

Of course she's not.

But what if she was?

That would be pretty wild.

I've been trying to find out more about Hannah Ellis Ryan.

I found an article in a tabloid that gives a small bit of information.  Well, they say she graduated from the University of Southern Queensland with a degree in theatre. Then she moved to Manchester.

I wonder why she moved.

The article provides her Instagram account, and I decided I could learn more about this Hannah Ellis Ryan by stalking examining her account.

Oh!

I forgot.

You know what I was curious about.

I thought Ryan looked familar to me, and then I realized she sort of reminds me of that actress from Neighbours. I forgot the name of the actress AND the character she played.

Shit.

Who is she.

She was dating Daniel, into photography....

Amber! Played by Jenna Rosenow.

I was able to figure out Amber with my own brain, but then I needed to Google to find the actresses name.

Is she related to Ryan?

Probably not.

But if by chance she is, maybe I'll see evidence on her Instagram.

Anyway....

Now I'm going to start my fun.

I peered a bit before on my iPhone. I saw Ryan has a LOT of photos. In the beginning, there are mostly food photos. So maybe she started as a foodie account?

Okay. So here's her account. Seeing her profile photo....I'm thinking more and more that she looks quite like Rosenow.

I'm doing a lot of back-scrolling now.

It's taking some time.

While scrolling, I was thinking that this post seems so fun to me because it involves three of my favorite things—Australian actors, looking at photos, and Coronation Street.

I feel I might be scrolling forever.

Ryan is very prolific on Instagram.

I'm seeing she's probably Vegan.

Or she was at some point.

I wonder how many Corrie actors are vegan or vegetarian.

Okay!  I finally got to the beginning.

Ryan's first Instagram photo (unless she deleted some) is a picture of a sweet potato salad.  It was posted in June 6 2013, which is a few months after we got back from our most recent trip to Australia.  This was also a few weeks before my youngest nephew was born. And it was the day before my oldest niece's 12th birthday.

The salad looks okay to me.  I'm trying to remember if I've ever had sweet potato on a salad.

It reminds me a bit of the Aussie thing of having pumpkin on a salad.

Here's a photo of two men looking out a window. Ryan says, the cast is bored.

I'm guessing this was a theater cast. In Australia? Or Manchester?

Here's a photo of Ryan and a birthday girl that she misses. Maybe she's an old friend from Australia? Or I could be totally wrong. It could be a friend from Manchester that moved to Colorado. Or a friend she met at a camp in the US. Who knows....

Here's a photo of avocado toast. I didn't realize it was a thing back in 2013.  Though I remember hearing it maybe began in Australia. So it was probably a thing there back then. Or it could have been not-a-thing, but a few cool people were already doing it.

OR maybe it was already a thing all over the world, and I just took a long time to catch up.

This smoothie looks SO good to me. It's bananas, flax, dates, and cinnamon. That's much more exciting than my smoothies. I usually just have milk and some kind of frozen fruit.  Either way, though, now I'm crazing a smoothie. That being said, I was actually already planning to have a smoothie today. But now seeing Ryan's smoothie is giving me that extra push.

Here's a political cartoon of a cow being milked for money. It makes me feel kind of bad that I'll be making my smoothie with milk. Sorry.

Here's another smoothie. The bubbles look unappetizing to me.  I think it's because I have this fear of not rinsing our dishes well enough. When I see a lot of bubbles, I imagine it's soap.

I wonder if Hannah Ellis Ryan is going to make smoothies for her Corrie co-stars.


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Here's Hannah's vegan birthday cake. She posted in on December 26, 2013. So...maybe that's her birthday? Boxing Day Girl.  Though her birthday may have been earlier and she took a few days to get around to posting the photo.

I had to take a long break from this very fun Instagram-activity to get my very overdue pap smear.

Now it turns out I have problems with my female bits as well as my brain bits (which is also female, actually).

It's horribly ironic because....

Many years ago, I got in a fight with my mom, dad, and sister. My sister was going through her own epilepsy drama, and I was stressing about traveling with a young child during the Wes Craven days of my period. I was off birth control at the time, and my periods had gotten obnoxiously heavy.

I did my whining and my mom responded by saying, Are you sure you're not talking yourself into it?

Because somehow I was blessed with the ability to control my menstrual blood with my mind. I wonder if there are any X-Men with that skill??

I was quite angry when she said this and lashed out, asking if they said the same thing about my sister and her problem. Now what I was trying to say is that my parents are dismissive and were they also this dismissive with my sister? Because...well, I can't remember for sure, but I think maybe they had said something in front of me, behind her back, and that's why I said that.

My parents and sister misinterpreted what I said and thought I was being a horrible person by comparing brain issues to female reproductive issues.

Cause you know, female bits don't do anything important...like uh...bring new humans into the world. And it's not like anyone ever dies of female issues, right. Like it's so trivial compared to brain issues.

There was yelling.

I was told to get out...like literally leave the house. Though I think things calmed down slightly, and we didn't actually have to make a dramatic exit.

There were harsh emails sent to me.

And now...

I don't know if I should laugh or scream.

Maybe I'll just beg people to PLEASE not be dismissive of female medical issues. Even if they don't turn out to be dangerous, they can be painful and/or debilitating. Despite what the commercials say, periods are not just a matter of riding on a white horse with a short white mini-skirt. Maybe it's like that for some women, but for other women, it's much more intense than that.

Also, if you have one family member with a major medical drama, don't sit there and be dismissive about the medical issues of other family members. There's no rule from the universe that says each family gets a maximum of one medical drama.

Edited to add 10/11-Thankfully it was a false alarm. I just had an ugly-looking donut (cervix). But besides some minor fibroid things, all is well. My pap smear and vaginal ultrasound had lovely results.  

Anyway...back to Hannah Ellis Ryan!

This blueberry breakfast looks kind of good to me. I think it's oatmeal?

I'm confused by this banana picture. Ryan says it's breakfast on the run. But the banana is on the ground. It's almost like she was banana-littering.

I like this lemon picture. According to the hashtags, it was some kind of morning cleanse.

Here's another drink with too many bubbles. I think I really have an aversion to drink bubbles.

Here's a photo of a place called Didsbury. Is that in Australia? England? Elsewhere?

Googled.

It's in Manchester.

Cool.

I just had an idea.

You know what would be cool...if Hannah Ellis Ryan moved to Manchester because she had been a fan of Corrie.

I like that idea.

I ALSO like the chocolate in this dessert. Or I imagine I'd like it. I like how it looks, at least.

Here's a photo of someone taking a photo of food. I like taking photos of people taking photos. One day I should take a photo of someone taking a photo of someone taking a photo.

Actually, I might have already done that.

Ryan has photos of three dimensional city books. Or maybe they're puzzles. I wonder what's up with that. She has a mention of someone named Wilkfield. Does this Wilkfield make these books? Or she might be traveling to one of the cities, because Wilkfield responds, We can officially start the countdown. 21 dayyyys!

If Wilkfield went to one of these cities (Paris, Rome, or New York), I hope she or he had a fabulous time.

Here is a lovely photo of figs and kiwis. Fruit can be so beautiful.

Here's another banana photo. It's quite ripe. I wonder if Ryan prefers ripe bananas. I like them when they're greenish-yellow. But lately we've been using ripe bananas in our smoothies.

And more bananas! Ryan mentions something called mono-mealing. I guess this is where you eat the same thing all day?

Well, no....

This article says it's eating only one kind of food for one meal. And the article says it's bad for you.

I can understand eating one thing all DAY being bad but for a meal?

Well, maybe if you did it for all meals, things might get unbalanced. But maybe it's not so bad if you do it occasionally.

In the photo, there are five bananas. Was Ryan planning to eat all those in one day? One meal?  I'm not sure that would be very healthy.

And here are a bunch of dates.

I think I'd prefer a bowl of dates for a meal rather than five bananas.

There's no mention of mono-mealing on the dates, though. She could have just been eating them in the usual way.

Here's a photo of Ryan's new bike. Though by now, it's no longer new. The picture was posted in September 2014. She mentions it being a Manchester hipster thing.

I wonder if hipsters worldwide are into bikes. Or is it just an England thing?

Googled and saw hipsters are into something called fixed-gear bikes.

Here's a photo of a Santa with vodka. Ryan says it's from an acting office. There's a Santa storyline on Corrie right now.  Brian (Peter Gunn) thinks he's very good with kids because they are extremely well-behaved around him. But then it turns out, the kids believe he's secretly Santa Claus.

Here's a lovely bowl of fruit.

I'm going to need to buy some dates soon.

Here is a photo of Ryan drinking a yellow drink while wearing a yellow shirt. Or maybe it's orange? Orange-yellow?

Here is a lovely photo of Ryan with a vegan blogger friend.

I wonder if many of Ryan's friends are vegan.

Here is Ryan with a lovely blue, vegan purse.

She is really into living the vegan life.

Here's a photo of Ryan with a new hairstyle.

Here's a photo of a building amidst snow in Manchester. As an Australian, it was probably not too common for Ryan to see snow...especially if she's a Queenslander.

I was just thinking that, so far, I have not seen any photos to indicate that Hannah Ellis Ryan was in any sort of Coronation Street fandom. Though it is possible that she was sort of in one, and it's just the vegan stuff overshadowed the Corrie stuff.

Here is Ryan looking frighteningly serious. She was working on a short film called "Margot".

I found a short film called Margot on IMDb, but Ryan's not in the cast...and it's an American film not a Manchester film.

I can't find the Manchester film...but I can't say I looked very hard.

I'm feeling lazy.

I thought this might be Vegemite, but no. It's homemade jam.

I wonder if Ryan likes Vegemite. And if she does, would she share it with her Corrie castmates?

Is Vegemite vegan?

I know it doesn't have any obvious animal products, but it might have some subtle ones.

Okay. I Googled. And Google is saying that it IS vegan.

Cool.

Here's a picture of a street in Manchester. Ryan says, Early evening stroll in this amazing city...walking new streets.

It's making me want to go to Manchester...someday.

I also feel maybe a little envious. I think it's such a gift to visit or move to a city that excites you.

Though I have had some good feelings about Fort Worth lately. But those feelings aren't as strong as my feelings for Australia, England, Japan, etc.

Wondered about this photo. It's a girl with a box. Hannah says, What's in the box? Find out tonight? The hashtags and mentions are: Contractions, 53two, and gmfringe.

Maybe it's a TV show? Or a web show?

Well, I just looked up gmfringe. It stands for Greater Manchester Fringe. It's a festival.  The last one was in July. I wonder if any Corrie actors were there.

I just had another long break. This time it was a Thai dinner and then that new Netflix show Maniac. We watched the first episode.

I'm not sure if I like it. I hope I do.

So far, it reminds me a lot of Black Mirror. I love Black Mirror, so I think there's a fair chance I'll like Maniac.

And...back to the Greater Manchester Fringe Festival.

Well, I was going to search the festival website to find Corrie actors, but I didn't know how to navigate that. So I just Googled the festival along with Coronation Street.

I found this article. Sue Jenkins directed two plays at the festival.  I'm not sure I know who she is. Is she still on the show?

No....

She played someone named Gloria Todd.  I think she was probably before my time.

Back to Instagram.

Here's a video of Hannah Ellis Ryan dancing.

And here is Ryan as a bridesmaid. The bridesmaids are all wearing white! I never heard of that before. Did the bride wear white as well? Or a different color?

They do look quite lovely.

Here's a picture of someone named jellybellycarroll. I'm getting from the hashtags that she's a director.

Jellybellycarroll comments on the picture: Clutching them beautiful words.

Ryan was complimenting Jellybellycarroll with the photo and captions. It makes me wonder if JellybellyCarroll was complimenting her back.

Maybe Ryan wrote the play/script?

Well, I'm going to take another long break. Because I need to go to sleep.

And now...

I'm awake.

Here is a photo of set-building action. I think it's of one of Ryan's coworkers.

The location of the photo is Hope Studios. Is that a film thing or a theater thing?

Here's their website.  It's a rental place. People can rent dance studios, piano rooms, rehearsal rooms, etc.

Here's Ryan promoting a play called Days of Wine and Roses. The performance was last October. I'm not sure if Ryan was a part of the play; if she liked the play and was promoting it; or if she was promoting it as a favor for someone.

This post was done in October 2017. So I'm getting a bit closer to the present. And there's a bit less food now. Before it was about 90% food posts. Now it's maybe...half and half?

Here's a promotion for another play. It's called Finding Alice. With this one, I think Ryan WAS involved with, because she writes, It’s a full day of this today.... sifting through countless incredibly talented #Manchester faces and swelling with pride that @manchesteradp is embarking on its first full length production!

I WAS thinking that the pride could refer to being proud of her friends. But then someone comments, Congratulations and good luck.

You know I'm wondering if Ryan is liking being on Coronation Street. Since she's used to working on smaller projects, I'm wondering if she usually has more creative control.

She might have been a big fish in a small pond. And with Corrie, she's a small fish in a big pond.

What I'm wondering is, does she hope to someday be a big fish in the big pond? Or might she be content with the small pond? She seems very happy with her theatre projects.

But...

A) You can't really get a true sense of someone's emotional well-being on Instagram

B) Someone can be happy with what they have but still want something different and/or more.

Here's a photo of one of Ryan's young cousins. She's very cute. I wonder if she's in Australia? Or maybe Ryan has family in Manchester? Maybe that's the reason she moved there?

Well, now I've learned that Ryan turned 29 last December. So she'll be having her 30th birthday in a few months. I hope she has a fun one.

I'm thinking this Japanese food looks really good.  Yesterday, while I was at the doctor, Tim and Jack went to an Asian food store. Jack bought and ate some ramen. That made me want ramen. But Tim said he hadn't seen any vegetarian ones.

For dinner we had Thai, though, and that was very good.

I'm wondering about this photo from a trailer of something called Wasp.

Well, I was wondering if it was for a play or short film; then I looked closer and saw it was a theater thing.

Here's a photo of Ryan playing Stella in a play called Things We Want. According to the theater's website, Things We Want is a black comedy. It involves three brothers meeting an apartment neighbor. Ryan is the Smurfette of the story, it seems.  It kind of reminds me of Big Bang Theory. Except in that, the guys aren't brothers.

Here is Ryan's vegan freak shake.  I finally had one a few weeks ago. Our neighborhood ice-cream shop has them now. I think they're going to be pretty much popping up everywhere. We had a s'mores one, and my favorite part about it was the actual s'more.  I thought the milkshake itself was a bit too sweet.

Here is Ryan's first post about Coronation Street!  It was posted on July 18.  I wonder if they had started filming by then. Also, how long did she know she had the part? How long did she have to keep it secret? When did she tell close friends and family?  I'm guessing it was a bit before she posted it on Instagram?

I went a bit backwards to see if there were hints earlier that I might have missed. I clicked on a random photo—a laptop. There are no hints about Corrie, but Ryan mentions having a break after being very busy and wanting to use that time for writing. So, she acts, writes, prepares food.....

I wonder what else.

Here is a photo of Hope Mill Theatre. I think it's a place that's important to Ryan.  I imagine she's going to try to balance her Corrie work with her theater work. I don't think it will be impossible. Corrie has a large ensemble cast, and each character can't be central to the storylines each day.  So I imagine on some days, actors have no work or very little work.

Also, Corrie characters are very often going to visit some relative somewhere out there. They sometimes disappear for weeks or months at a time.

Who will Hannah (the character) visit? Well, probably someone in Australia.

There is a chance Hannah won't stick around. After her scam is discovered, she might be sent packing. BUT she could end up becoming one of those characters who ends up redeeming themselves. Or at least their misdeeds are forgotten. Years later, Hannah might be a main character, and we'll have to remind ourselves that she once cruelly conned Liz McDonald.

Here is Hannah's first Instagram selfie with another Corrie actor. It's Kate Ford who plays the horrible and wonderful Tracy Barlow. She's one of my favorites. That might not be saying much, because I probably have 20-30 favorites on Coronation Street.

I don't think I've seen any scenes with Ford and Ryan yet. From where I'm at, their characters haven't met yet. But I'm about two weeks behind...via Hulu.

I used to be years behind!

Here's a photo of a cat. One thing I've noticed is that Ryan doesn't have a lot of animal photos. I saw a dog. Then there's this cat. I think there were also some goats.  I'm guessing she doesn't have any animal companions. I wonder how she feels about pets. I think vegans typically support adopting cats, dogs, and other rescue pets. They are probably not supportive of buying pets from pet stores or breeders. I don't think they'd support the pet trade.

Here's Ryan's laptop in the Corrie green room. I'm really curious about what it would be like to be a newbie on a soap opera. Is she making friends? Are people being nice to her? Does she feel left out? Are people making an effort to make her feel included? Are there any Corrie actor that are standoffish or cliquey?

I wonder if the other actors and crew make a big deal out of Ryan being Australian. I don't think Corrie has a lot of international actors...at least not since I've been watching.

Here's a photo of Ryan with Beverly Callard. She's another one of my favorite Corrie people.

In the caption, Ryan says, And I can now check "getting papped" off my bucket list I guess.

What does that mean?

Oh!

Okay Googled. It's being followed by paparazzi.

 Here's a photo of a Coronation Street/ITV building. I'm guessing its their studio.

Ryan has a Harry Potter related post. It's a fan-theory thing about Mad Eye Moody being the only wizard who is able to see the true form of Boggarts.

Interesting.

I wonder if Ryan is a Harry Potter fan.

From her Instagram, I get the idea she's not a huge one, or at least she hasn't been a huge one in the last few years.

But she might have been a big fan once upon a time.

I just read the caption on this photo and learned Ryan had a 11 hour filming day. That's pretty intense. And she was probably on screen for less than 10 minutes.

Here is a photo of Ryan with her onscreen NOT-dad (Charlie Lawson).  In the caption, she says,
Well today some paparazzi photos went out of me filming and they are all out and about. Already the comments are flooding in about my looks - how old I look, attractiveness etc. Wow - I thought I prepared myself for the madness on the horizon but clearly not.

I've seen some comments from Corrie viewers. They can be really harsh.

I'm not sure I've seen any about physical appearance, but I have seen comments about acting ability.  I mean in terms of actors in general. I haven't seen any comments yet about Ryan—good or bad.

Well, here is a photo of Ryan with an animal. It's a black dog, and she's wearing a black shirt. So the dog is kind of invisible. It's pretty cool.

Oh! Here is yet another dog.

Here's another play promotion post. It's called the Effect.

The play is about a clinical drug trial and deals with love, neurology, and other things. It sounds interesting to me.

I don't see Ryan on the cast list. She might have helped offstage. Or she might have been promoting as a fan or to be supportive.

Oh! I just saw the play actually ended yesterday.

Here is another freak shake. It looks quite yum.

I'm wondering about this photo caption.  Ryan says,
Most people would brush their hair or put some mascara on when going into one of the biggest TV shows. Not me folks. Meet Hannah - hitting your screens this week.

I'm guessing she means that she didn't get her hair or make-up done, because of the character she's playing. Or if she trying to say that, unlike other soap opera actors, she's not worried about appearance. That would be fine...and kind of cool. But announcing it? I think it kind of ruins the effect.

Here's another animal post. It's a black dog again. The same black dog?

I see that Ryan got a hair cut.  I guess I'll be seeing it in a week or so on Corrie. Unless she wears a wig.That would be a bit tedious. I wonder if Corrie actors have ever gotten in trouble for getting an unexpected haircut. Do they have to get permission?  I mean it might not be in a rulebook. But maybe it's expected.

I'm sure a trim is perfectly fine. But if it's something more drastic?

Ryan's is not a trim, but also not drastic. It's different, but not very different.

Here's another Corrie photo. Ryan says, Just another one of the outfits of Hannah that the UK has to look forward to.

Hello?? UK? What about the rest of us?!  There are some of us here in the US, and I'm pretty sure there are many people in Australia and elsewhere that watch the show.

I imagine Australia will also gain some new watchers because of Ryan.

You know, I don't think I've seen Ryan mention Australia OR her family that much. I wonder if she had unhappiness there.

That being said, I've read the caption of only about 5-10% of her photos. There's a lot of stuff I didn't click on. So I very likely could have missed some things.

Anyway...back to the outfit. I don't like it, but at the same time, I kind of do.

I like Ryan's new red glasses here. She looks very cute with them.

AND...

Now I'm looking at Ryan's most recent Instagram photo; taken yesterday. It's a photo of drinks—orange juice and chocolate not-milk.

The not milk is called mylk. I wonder what it's made from.

Well, the company is called Rebel Kitchen. Their flavors are chocolate, coffee. chai, and matcha.

It's coconut milk.

We had been buying coconut milk a lot a few months ago. Then we stopped. I think it's because Tim didn't like how it tasted when hot, so he started buying almond milk. But then he also stopped with that.

Anyway...I guess I'm done.

I feel like I learned a lot, but I probably learned close to nothing. Because no matter how much people post on Instagram, it really never tells the full story. I don't think it ever even comes close.


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