Kirsty Fisher

Kirsty Fisher is probably Australian, so she would also fit well with my old biography posts.

She's maybe-Australian and a TV writer.

I say maybe-Australian, because she could be from New Zealand.

She does work in the Aussie screen industry, though.

I can see that from looking at her filmography.

She wrote one of the episodes of Wanted that I watched today.

I'm liking that show a lot. I've seen it described as a cross between The Fugitive and Thelma and Louise. I definitely agree with that assessment.

The show is about two women, Lola (Rebecca Gibney) and Chelsea (Geraldine Hakewill), who know each other only because they take the same bus every day.

One day (or night?) things don't go well at the bus stop. They end up being part of a crooked cop drama. They're kidnapped, chased, framed for murder, etc.

They become fugitives and bond along the way.

In Kirsty Fisher's episode, Lola and Chelsea mess up on filling the car with petrol. Oops! And they end up having to trek through the Australian wilderness.

It's quite a shitty mess but fun to watch because there's suspense, touching moments, and humor. And unlike the most recent Game of Thrones episode I watched, there's plenty of sunshine and other sources of light. So I can see what's going on.

* * *

Now I'm going to make my way through Kirsty Fisher's filmography.

Chronologically, the first thing I see is that Fisher was an assistant to producer and secretary to producer for the show Halifax f.p.

You know...I think Rebecca Gibney was in that too.  Although I could be wrong.

I'll click on the show and see.

I'm not wrong! Yay! Gibney was the star of that.  

It seems to me that Fisher had more humble beginnings than Daniel Chun. Daniel Chun was like Harvard; then onto writing for The Simpsons.  

Note: By humble beginnings, I mean their writing careers...not their childhoods.

The Halifax f.p gig was from 1997-1998. Also around that time period, Fisher worked as a script editor trainee for two episodes of Stingers.  I guess that was an educational job. I wonder if she got paid at all. Or was it more of an internship type thing?

I've heard of Stingers but have never watched it. I also can't remember who's in it. Though I feel that it's one of those shows that constantly pops up when I look at the past work of actors I'm seeing in recent Aussie TV shows. 

For fun, I'm going see if I know of any of the actors in one of the episodes that Fisher did her training. 

There's Kate Kendall.  I know her from Neighbours.

Jessica Napier.  I loved her in McLeod's Daughters.  

Nicholas Bell. I've seen him in a lot of stuff. And he's one of the stars of Wanted.

* * *

If I'm understanding IMDb correctly, it looks like Fisher was having a lack of screen work from 1999-2003.  Things get quiet.

I wonder what she was doing.

Taking care of a baby?

Theater work?

Writing a novel?

Dealing with an illness.

School?

Working at a job that is totally outside the realm of the TV industry?

Anyway....

In 2003, Fisher got back into things. She worked for the TV show The Sleepover Club.

She was a script editor for thirteen episodes and a writer for one episode. 

The Sleepover Club is another show that I've heard of but never watched.  

I think maybe it's like The Saddle Club in the sense that it's filmed in Australia but they keep the setting vague.  

The Saddle Club was annoyingly mysterious about what country the horses and girls were living in.  

No, mysterious is the wrong word. A mystery would have been fun. They would have dropped hints and tried to get us to guess.

Obtuse would be a better word. Or vague? 

Oh! Cool.

I just saw from IMDb that I'm wrong.  

The Sleepover Club is actually about Australians. That's cool.

Lord Wiki says that the books, the show is based on, actually take place in England. But the TV show took place in Australia.

Now I'm looking at what actors I recognize from this show.

Ryan Corr.  He was in Wanted. But mostly I know him from Packed to the Rafters. And the Wolf Creek sequel.  

At least I think it was the sequel.  Or was it the first one?

There's Caitlin Stasey. I recognized her but had to click on her name, because I couldn't remember what I've seen her in.  It was probably Tomorrow When the World Began.

So far I feel this post is more about actors than writers.

Sorry.

I think I'm just more used to writing about actors than writers.

I'll get a hang of things eventually.

Or maybe I won't.

Ah! Eliza Taylor!  She's in The Sleepover Club. I know her from the American show The 100. 

I'm thinking I should look specifically at the episode that Fisher wrote.  It's called Fearlotto.  It involves the sleepover kids sharing their worst fears.

What is the deal with these sleepovers?  How often does the club meet? Do they always have a sleepover?  

Okay. Lord Wiki says the club is made up of five girls and they sleep over one of their houses at least once a week.

That sounds pretty fun.

I'm imagining that at one point, there might be a newbie in the mix.  I also kind of imagine there's an outsider who tries to sabatoge the club.  

* * *

Someone has uploaded the "Fearlotto" episode to YouTube. I don't expect it to be around for long, so if you click on my link, it might, unfortunately, take you nowhere. 

I'm just watching random scenes.

It turns out the sleepover girls aren't just sharing their fears but planning to work together to conquer their fears. It's like group therapy.

Their Aussie accents seem very strong to me. 

I'm trying to figure out which young girl grew up to be the girl in The 100.

I think it's the girl wearing purple?

Yikes. Again...more into the actors than the writing.

* * *

I'm going to move onto the next show.

It's actually something I've never heard of before. 

Silversun.

Ryan Corr was one of the stars.  

So there seems to be some kind of connection between Fisher and Corr.  It might not be a connection between the two of them...but maybe a joint connection through someone else.  For example, maybe there's a producer or director that's friends (or friendly) with both Fisher and Corr.

Angus McClaren is also on the show and he starred with both Corr and Gibney on Packed to the Rafters.

Silversun is a 2004 science fiction show. It's about starting a colony on a silver sun.

What is a silver sun?

Lord Wiki says it's a British rock band and an Aussie TV show.  So I guess there is no real silver sun hanging out somewhere.  

I'm guessing it's the idea that somewhere out there is a sun that has a lot of silver in it's atmosphere. Or it has some chemical that makes it look silver in color?

Anyway, Fisher is listed as part of the script department for twelve episodes. And she was the writer for three episodes.  

Here's one of the episodes that Fisher wrote. 

Ryan Corr has some wild, futuristic hair.

The black girl in the show looks familar to me. Do I know her from somewhere?

I don't know her character name so it would be hard to find out what actress is playing her.

The more I watch bits of the show, the more curious I get. And I don't think they're going to say her name. So I'm going to Google the actors and see if I can find a black one.

So far I'm finding only white girls. But I've clicked on only two names...so far.

I found it!!!!

Cleopatra Coleman.

And I know her from an American TV show—Last Man on Earth.  

I love that show!

She's Jamaican black rather than Aboriginal black.

Okay. Yeah. This post is probably going to be more about me getting excited about recognizing actors than it ever is going to be about Kirsty Fisher.  At least during the IMDb part.  

The problem is, I'm not sure how much I'll find outside of IMDb.

* * *

The next show on Fisher's filmography is Last Man Standing. Fisher was a script editor for that.

There are last men on earth and last men standing.

And isn't there an American show, Last Man Standing?

Yep. Googled.  It's with Tim Allen.

The Australian Last Man Standing came out in 2005. Rodger Corser was the star.  It's a comedy-drama about male friendship.  It sounds a bit like House Husbands. And peaking ahead....Fisher wrote for that show as well.  

* * *

I watched the next show on Fisher's filmography—Pirate Island—the Last Treasures of Fiji. 

I remember these things. A) I watched it in Disney World when we were staying in Port Orleans. Jack was sick. It was very hot. B) I didn't like the show very much.

Fisher wrote only one episode: "Unholy Alliance".  It was the second to the last one.

I want to move on from this.

I don't want to have any reliving of my time on Pirate Island.

* * *

In 2006, Fisher was a script editor for five episodes of the first season of H20: Just Add Water. And she wrote one episode of season 2.

Oh! And that has a connection to Silversun. Angus McClaren was in both shows.

I'm looking at the episode that Fisher wrote: "Hocus Pocus". It's about making a potion that grants wishes. I vaguely remember that.  

Maybe there was a creepy guy who wished for one of the mermaids to fall in love with him? Or something like that?

* * *

It seems that between 2003-2007, Fisher was mostly writing children's television shows.

I might have failed to mention that some of these shows were for kids. The Sleepover Club seems kind of obvious. If there was an adult show called The Sleepover Club, it would probably be porno or erotica.

But yeah—Silversun, H20 Just Add Water, and Pirate Island are also all kid shows.

After 2007, Fisher's filmography goes quiet again.

Then she comes back in 2011 with a NOT-kid show.  Instead it's a parenting show—Laid.

Oh! And now I see there's a season 2.  

I've watched only season 1.

I wonder if season 2 is on Netflix yet. 

You know...I really thought Laid was more recent—like from 2 years ago rather than 8 years ago.

Oh no!!!!

Wait.

I have the wrong show.

Stupid-me.

I'm thinking of The Let Down!!!!

I think that IS new.

I did also watch Laid, but I don't remember much about it.  

I'm pretty sure it stars the same woman from The Let Down.

Okay. Yeah. Alison Bell.  Now I feel a tiny bit less stupid.

Anyway, Laid is a comedy. I think about romance?  I don't remember much about it. IMDb, though, is triggering my memory a bit. I think Bell believes she's cursed?  She has multiple ex-lovers dying on her.

Here's a trailer.

It's kind of like a romantic dark comedy.

I wish I remembered it more.

I would sit here and say I should re-watch it. But there's just too much new stuff to watch.

That being said....I do have two re-watching things on my to-watch List.  One is Lost and the other is The Haunting of Hill House.

Anyway....

Fisher was actually one of the creators of Laid. She co-created it with a woman named Marieke Hardy.  

The two of them also produced the show along with six other producers.  

* * *

In 2013, Fisher wrote an episode of Mr. and Mrs. Murder.  I think I've seen one episode of that?  Maybe we watched it IN Australia? I have this vague feeling/memory that we did. I think maybe there was something with horses?

Oh!  

I just clicked on the episode and saw that Fisher wrote the very first one! I wasn't expecting that.

Any actors, on the show, that seem to be have some kind of connection to Fisher and/or her work?

Yes!

Alison Bell!

Anyone else?

Well, not that I can see.

I'm watching the trailer now. The premise is more interesting than I imagined.  I thought it was just another detective thing. But no, Mr. and Mrs Murder (Shaun Micallef and Kat Stewart) are crime scene CLEANERS.  

Did I understand that when I watched the one episode? Maybe I did and just forgot?

* * *

The next show is....

DANCE ACADEMY!!!!!!!!

Hallelujah!

That's such a fantastic show.

I think I've tried to get everyone in my family to watch it....well, not the three young boys. Because at the time they would have been way too young. Or not even born.

But anyway, not one family member took my advice. 

Their loss!

I really think all of them would like it.

Well to be fair, Jack and Tim did TRY one episode. But still. I think they should have tried a bit harder. Maybe.

Fisher wrote four episodes in 2012-2013.  Which season would that be?

Just did the clicking.

There's one from season 2 and three from season 3.  

I'm going to see if I remember any of them.

In the first episode "A Choreographed Life", Christian (Jordan Rodrigues) is hurt by Tara (Xenia Goodwin).  

I recently watched the Americanized version of Rodrigues in The Fosters.

I wonder if any fans of The Fosters have ended up seeking out Dance Academy. I hope so.

Well...as for "A Choreographed Life", nothing in the description really rings my memory bell.

The next episode is "The Naturals". I kind of remember this one, or at least I remember the storyline it leads to.  

Zach (Kip Gamblin) gives Grace (Isabel Durant) some private lessons. And if I remember correctly, that led to an incident of the ever-so-popular TV troupe of false accusations of sexual assault. 

I can't remember but am wondering. Did Dance Academy ever deal with real sexual assault or harassment? 

Oh! I almost forgot to mention.  From what I saw in the description, it seems "The Naturals" is where Abi (Dena Kaplan) starts singing.  

I think with the third episode "Short Cut Clause" the grief has already begun. Because Thom Green is not in the credits.

He IS in "The Naturals".

I guess he dies in between those two episodes.

Anyway...the last Fisher episode is "Graceland".

Nothing about it feels familar to me.

And...

I'm confused.

Now I'm seeing that only "Graceland" is in season 3.  The other episodes were in season 2.  

Did I read something wrong? Or is IMDb being confusing?

Well...it seems to be me.

I read things wrong.

It's two episodes in season 2 and two episodes in season 3.  

The big tragedy happens towards the end of season 2.  

I'm looking through the episodes, and I totally have to watch that tribute scene now.  

So...beautiful.

* * *

I see that once again I've messed up chronologically with IMDb.

BEFORE Dance Academy, Fisher wrote some episodes of Winners and Losers.

I've heard of that show but haven't watched it yet.

I don't know if it's available on the three streaming thingies I use (Hulu, Netflix, and Amazon) 

No...I don't see it.

But anyway, Fisher wrote five episodes from 2011-2014. 

I'll look at the middle one. It's called "Maybe Baby" 

None of the actors on the show seem very familar to me; though some seem vaguely familar.

Wait. Damien Brodie....

I think he's the guy from The Elephant Princess.

Yep. I'm right.

Cool.

I like being right. 

* * *

I couldn't find "Maybe Baby" on Youtube. But someone has uploaded another Fisher episode—"Happiness is a Delusion".

I'm going to watch a little bit.  

The people have weird voices. Like they sucked in helium. I'm not sure if there's an issue with the uploading, or it's part of the storyline?

I fast-forwarded and people still sound strange.

Maybe the characters just talk that way.

Or maybe I'm having some kind of really fucked up neurological symptom. Is there something where everyone sounds like a Chipmunk to you?

Well, no. I'm fine. I can hear Tim in the other room, and he sounds normal.

I just turned on another YouTube video—a Ted Talk. And that sounds funny to me too!!????

Now I'm watching Oprah read Harry Potter. All is well with that.

So, what's happening?

I think I get it.

My guess is that the Winners and Losers episode was uploaded at the wrong speed. Then by coincidence, I think the Ted Talker had a kind of high voice.

* * *

Fisher wrote a season 2 episode of Upper Middle Bogan.  I watched the series but don't remember the episode.

I feel most of this post is about me forgetting what I watched in the past. 

The description on IMDb says Julie (Robyn Malcolm) learns that Wayne (Glenn Robbins) is a descendant of rich relatives. 

Yeah. I totally don't remember that.

I'm not even sure who Wayne is.

Julie's husband?

Yeah. That's who he is.

I wasn't sure, because his picture is not on IMDb. So I clicked on his name and saw he's the actor who was also in Kath and Kim. That helped to put things together for me.

* * *

Fisher wrote two episodes of Wonderland.

I watched some of that on Hulu. Years ago!  I so loved it.  Hulu was weird about it, though. They had the 1st season and part of the 2nd season combined as one season.  

Recently I learned that it's now on Amazon Prime.  

Well, they have the first two seasons.

Were any more seasons made?

Yes! 

It's three seasons!

Will we ever get all seasons here?

I hope so!

Fisher wrote an episode of season 2 and season 3.

I'm not going to dive deep because I don't want spoilers.

* * *

Fisher wrote an episode of Ready For This.

It was a 2015 series about Aboriginal teens at a hostel in Sydney.  

Here's a trailer for the series.

It's a teen drama.

I think it looks pretty good. 

The anthem kid (Aaron L McGrath) from Redfern Now is one of the stars. So is manipulative Billie (Tessa de Josselin) from Home and Away.  Though I think she ended up being less manipulative later on...after I stopped watching.  People DO change sometimes. Like Theon Greyjoy.  BUT...I think it happens more in fiction than in real life.  

* * *

Well, I had some more chronological confusion.

Back in 2013....during the days of Dance Academy, Mr and Mrs. Murder and Winners and Losers, Fisher wrote an episode of House Husbands.  It was in season 2, which I would have watched.

The episode is where Kane (Gyton Grantley) and Tom (Tim Campbell) have their lives stressed by the appearance of their daughter's biological father.

I vaguely remember that.

Maybe?

Was their daughter adopted?

* * *

I just suggested to Tim that we maybe re-watch Game of Thrones, which reminded me that we re-watched some of Westworld.

So...I might have kind of misspoke before when I talked about re-watching only Lost and The Haunting of Hill House.

Anyway....onto The Family Law. This is a more recent show.  Fisher is a producer and writer for it.

Oh! It's about Chinese-Australians.

I don't think I knew that Australia has an Asian show.

That's very cool.

Fisher is the top writer just below the creator (Benjamin Law).  She's written 11 out of 18 episodes.

All the episodes of season 3 came out on January 12, 2019 which makes me think it's Netflix.  

I wonder if it's on my watch-list.  If it is, that means I DID know there was an Asian-Australian show and just forgot. Like usual.  

I just checked my IMDb app on my phone.

Yes. It's on my watch-list.

Here's a promo of the show—the opening scene. 

It looks very sweet.

I hope to watch it someday.

Well...it might not happen because there are over a thousand things on my watch-list.

And I just checked. I was wrong about it being on Netflix.

Maybe Amazon Prime.....

Nope.

* * * 

The last show on Fisher's filmography is Mustangs FC. 

She's written eight episodes.

It looks like another team drama. This one's about football.

Here's a trailer for the 2nd season.

I guess it looks kind of good. Maybe?

I'm not really into sports.

But I'm also not really into dance, and I liked Dance Academy.

* * *

Now I'm going to look for articles and/or interviews.....

Here is Fisher's profile on the RGM website. I think it's an agency.  

They say that Fisher was an in-house development coordinator at Burberry Productions.

I have no idea what an in-house development coordinator is. I'm not sure I care enough to try to figure out what it means.

But I WILL look up Burberry Productions.  

They are a TV production company that is no longer active.

I guess they still have a website for nostalgic purposes...or for curious people like me.

They made Last Man Standing and The Sleepover Club—two of Fisher's shows.

Fisher was also part of something called Scribe. It has to do with screen and play development.  

I think this Playmaker website is talking about the Scribe thing.

What is Playmaker?

Oh. Okay. It's an Australian television production company. 

They're responsible for the shows Hiding, Love Child, The Code, House Husbands, and Slide.

There are other shows as well. The ones above are just the ones I've heard of (or watched) before.

Scribe seems to be about Australian writers working with writers in Los Angeles to help them refine their work.

It kind of sounds like they're trying to make Australian writers more Hollywoodish. 

It could be because American shows have more mass-international appeal, and they're trying to get Australian shows the same amount of attention.  

There are shows in Australia that are fairly popular around the world. But I don't think there has been anything like America's Game of Thrones or The Walking Dead.  OR like the UK's Downton Abbey. 

Though I'm not sure it's about quality. 

It could be more about marketing and distribution.  

Anyway....

Here's some other stuff about Kirsty Fisher.

She has two small kids.

I wonder when that profile was written.

The small kids might be big kids now.

 And here's something quite interesting: Fisher has a stationery company called International Girl Aerogrammes. It's an initiative to get people back into letter writing.

Reading all my old letters this year and last year really made me miss letter-writing.

Then again, it could be that I lost(or greatly reduced) contact with pretty much EVERYONE from my past...except for my immediate family.

If  I was still in touch with people—texting them on a regular basis, I probably wouldn't have such a longing.

For example. In college, my first cousin and I frequently kept in touch with letter writing. We shared a lot. We were very much in touch.

Now I see him every few years at family gatherings, and it's just vague small talk.

What if we were still good friends? What if we texted on a weekly basis?  

So...it's probably my relationship to him that I miss and not the actual letter-writing.

* * *

Here's a 2009 review of International Girl Aerogrammes. I'm assuming it's the one that Fisher was co-creator/owner of.

I say was, because I tried to go to the actual website, and it doesn't work. It might have gone out of business?

The reviewer says the stationery designs have the aim of increasing awareness about cultures and languages. The example in the reviewer's photo has Arabic on the stationery.

The stationery is environmentally friendly—100% recycled. That's cool!

They have a quote from International Girl Aerogramme's mission. They say:

We believe that happiness and kindness come through slowing down and taking time: savoring the moment and being aware.

I definitely agree with this. Though it would be wise for me to work on putting it in practice more.

Well.....

Maybe my new way of doing biography posts is kind of on that path.

With the old way, I'd work all day. It was exhausting. And I'm sure I felt very rushed at times.

Now I'm writing the posts over several days. I feel less rushed. And also it gives me more time for other things.

* * *

Now I'm going to read an interview with Fisher and her Laid writing partner Marieke Hardy. It's in something called IF Magazine.

The article/interview is from 2012.

Fisher said she met Hardy when she was a script editor for a kids TV show that Hardy was writing for.

I wonder which one.

I guess I can just cross reference their filmographies.....

Looking at Hardy's filmography.  It looks like it was The Sleepover Club that brought them together.

In between The Sleepover Club and Laid, the two writers worked together on Last Man Standing.  

Fisher says this about her and Hardy's collaboration: 

I think our styles are slightly different. I think she does much more zingy one-liners and lots of pop culture references and I think I’m a bit more mushy. I often go for the heart and the warmth and the kind of poignant moment.

That makes collaboration sound really wonderful.

I haven't done much writing with other people. What Fisher says makes me want to. It sounds nice, working with your strengths and having someone else pick up the slack when it comes to your weaknesses.

My biggest weakness is probably descriptions. I'm horrible at describing people and settings.

It would be cool if I can have someone write the descriptions and I'd maybe do the dialogue?  We could both work on plot stuff.

Although I imagine sometimes things don't work out well. What if I have a writer friend that I adore. We want to work together but it ends up we both suck at writing descriptions. What if we both think we're good at writing dialogue, and we get all competitive and spiteful about that.

I like what Fisher says here: She’s a lot stronger on the directing – in rehearsals she’s much more able to direct performers because she understands that language. She understands how to communicate it in a way that’s sort of subtle and diplomatic rather than me going “not like that!

Funny! And I like Fisher's self-awareness. She seems to understand her strengths and weaknesses.

Oh!  I could have just kept reading.

In Marieke's section, she reveals that the children's show was The Sleepover Club.

Now I'm wondering why Fisher was vague about it. Did she forget the show?  Was she trying to be mysterious? Is she embarrassed of it?

* * *

Now I'm reading an interview with Benjamin Law regarding The Family Law.

He says something similar to what Fisher said about collaboration. AND he also seems to agree with what Fisher said regarding her emotional writing.

He says: Even in the series two iteration of the writers room, there are all of these different elements that complement each other. Lawrence Leung brings a lot of heart. Kirsty Fisher brings so much emotional depth, but also logic as well. She will say “This doesn’t make sense. This would make sense if you were in *this* situation”. Sophie Miller just has the vision. I provide really bad jokes, half of which don’t work. And Julie Eckersley who is our producer, who is in the room as well, has an acting background. So, when we can’t understand a scene, she gets up out of her chair to act it out.

That's very cool.

* * *

Here's an article, in The Age, about Fisher, Hardy, and Laid.

Now suddenly I'm naming the websites that I'm visiting.. I mean I usually do that when it comes to IMDb, Twitter, and stuff like that. But I don't usually name the places I'm finding the articles or blogposts.

So, now I'm thinking what I really need, in terms of collaboration, is a writer who is good at consistency.

I'm horrible at being consistent.

For example....

Should I write out numbers or should I just use the actual number?

When I talk about TV shows, should I talk in present tense or past tense. Should it be Ryan Corr is in Packed to the Rafters or Ryan Corr was in Packed to the Rafters.

Anyway.....

Paul Kalina, the author of the article, describes Laid as part gentle black comedy, part romantic fable.

I like that—gentle black comedy.

I wonder what other shows would fit into that description. 

Maybe Santa Clarita's Diet?  The gore of the show is FAR from gentle. It's very gruesome. But the characters are so sweet...even though they're committing murder.

Hardy is big on declaring that her show is not about female empowerment or a female fightback show.

Why? What's so wrong with that?  

I mean not every show has to be about female empowerment. But why would someone feel the need to promote the fact that it's not.  

It's like she's worried people will avoid the show because they're afraid of feminist themes.  

There's also stuff in the article about making sure Roo (Alison Bell) doesn't seem like too much of a slut. Because then she could end up being unlikeable.

Yikes.  

And they didn't want Roo to be too beautiful, because it might be a put off to female viewers.

Okay. That one I'm guilty of.

Sort of.

There have been actresses I've been resistant to, because they were too pretty. When I first saw their shows, I saw them as mindless, boring Barbie Dolls. But within an episode or two, I quite adored them.

The two that come to mind are Amanda Schull in 12 Monkeys and Lauren German in Lucifer.

I also have issues when almost every woman on a show looks like models. The newer episodes of Home and Away were like that for me. Too much prettiness. 

* * *

As for social media....

There are quite a few Kirsty Fisher's on Twitter,  but I don't think any of them are the subject of this post.

How about Instagram?

No. I'm not finding the right Kirsty Fisher there either.

I don't have a Facebook account, so I'm not going to explore that avenue.

So...I guess this will be the end.

Read my novel: The Dead are Online 

The Popularity of Waleed Aly, Terra Nova, K9, and More Red

1. Dreamed that, I have a large bag of cocaine in my possession. I don't plan to use it. I talk to Tim about it. He says once you try cocaine, your body needs to have a little bit of it each day. I then worry that I'm accidentally going to ingest some.  

I'm sure that was inspired by Killing Time. 

2. Started to watch an episode of Home and Away.

3. Saw Kat (Pia Miller) and Nate (Kyle Prior) arguing about the public marriage proposal.  

Nate thinks Leah (Ada Nicodemou) was wrong in saying no, because she embarrassed Zac (Charlie Clausen). Kat thinks Nate is wrong for thinking a woman should say yes to a man just to save him from embarrassment.

The conversation made me realize something.

I've been annoyed at Home and Away for having these annoying public proposals. But now I'm thinking maybe the show is actually taking a stand against them.  Because twice they've resulted in a no.

4. Sickened by an editorial I just read. It's about accusations that Waleed Aly isn't popular enough to win a Gold Logie.  

I'm trying to understand it. 

5. Started to reread the editorial, and I'm even more disgusted.

First, some background information.

Like America's Oscars, the Logies tend to favor white people.

But UNLIKE the Oscars, this years Logies actually showed some ethnic diversity.  

This year, two out of the six nominees are not of white-European heritage: Waleed Aly has an Egyptian background, and Lee Lin Chin was born in Indonesia.

The editorial says that on the Today Show, three of the hosts dressed up in white face and chatted about why one of the hosts, Lisa, hadn't been nominated. The answer? She's too white. Lisa then said,  I got a spray tan and everything, still didn’t make it.What can you do?  

I'm trying to give these people the benefit of the doubt here. MAYBE they were going for irony. But it's hard for me to believe that.

It really does seem like they're complaining about nonwhite people being nominated.Yes, there's humor, but it seems like the kind of humor that's used to hide real anger or annoyance.

But it gets worse.

Apparently, there was an editorial where someone listed why Waleed Aly shouldn't have been nominated. One of the reasons? He's not popular enough.

WTF?

I don't have statistics. But I feel like almost every time I go on Twitter, Waleed Aly is trending.

I've heard of him more than I've heard of some of the other nominees. Grant Denyer? Scott Cam?  I'm not familiar with those guys. Granted. I've here in the U.S.  If I was in Australia, maybe I would have heard of them.

6. Went to read the anti-Aly-nomination editorial.

7. Bewildered by these lines in the article. Aly’s biased — but that’s not exactly his fault. One minute, Aly’s professing journalistic neutrality, such as when he interviews Shane Warne about his charity foundation, and the next, he’s editorialising about terrorism. Granted, that’s an academic speciality of his, but in the mix of current affairs, panel show and interviews that make up The Project, Aly’s role is a bit unclear.

Again. WTF????!!!

First of all, since when does being biased have anything to do with one's level of popularity?

Have you seen Alyssa Milano's Twitter account? She's very biased, and she's also very popular. She has millions of followers.

What popular person out there isn't biased?

Second, what's with the line about Aly's bias not being exactly his fault? What does that mean?  It sounds like he has some kind of medical condition we need to take in account. Oh, poor Waleed Aly. He has a bias. He's not completely objective like the rest of us.  

8. Saw that one of the reasons why Aly shouldn't have been nominated is diversity should be the norm.

So, we should refrain from having Aly as a nominee until we get more nonwhite people on television?

9. Went back to watching the episode of Home and Away.

Suddenly, there's a major spark between Phoebe (Isabella Giovinazzo) and Ash (George Mason).

It feels like it came out of nowhere. There was a playful sports bet, flirting, and then that led to skinny dipping.  Late they accidentally fell on top of each other and had that look of romantic confusion. All of this happened in one episode.

10. Thought that maybe there was a build up to all this, and I didn't notice it.

11. Decided to add Terra Nova to my to-watch list. I don't know why I didn't add it before.  It's part Australian. It was filmed in Australia and has some Australian actors.

The reason I'm wanting to add it now, though, is one of the writers is Travis Fickett. He's the creator of my current favorite show, 12 Monkeys.

12. Saw that there are TWO Terra Nova writers that are 12 Monkey creators. It's Travis Fickett AND Terry Matalas.

13. Saw that Tai Hara from Home and Away appears in two episodes of Terra Nova.

14. Wondered if there were any Australians in the crew.  I checked a few of the writers and directors and didn't see anything.  But there could be some Aussies in there somewhere.

15. Looked at random people in the credits. It looked like most are NOT Australian.

Then I found Louise Coulston in the make-up department. Based on her filmography, I'd guess she's Australian.  She did make-up for Paper Giants: Magazine Wars, Rush, Scooter Secret Agent, and some other Aussie things.

16. Found another Australian in the make-up/hair department—Karen Adcock.  She did work for The Elephant Princess and H20: Just Add Water, along with some other things.

17. Got the idea that all or most of the make-up/hair department is Australian.

Simon Joseph was the make-up artist for the later seasons of Packed to the Rafters.

Sharon Robbins helped with H20.

Gail Kane did hair and make-up for Camp, another American show filmed in Australia.

18. Saw that some of the stunt workers are Australian.

19. Saw that some of the costume people are Australian.

20. Saw that the caterer of Terra Nova, Loretta Kindness, also did the catering for K-9.  I ran into that show recently when I was learning about Daniel Webber.  I'm seeing now that the show was filmed in Australia.

21. Started to look at the cast of K-9.

Are there many Australians besides Webber?

So far, I've found Keegan Joyce from Rake.

22. Guessed that Philippa Coulthard is Australian.  She's been in some Aussie things, including Lightning Point, which also starred Lucy Fry. Fry starred with Webber in 11:22:63.

23. Saw that there are many Australians in the cast of K-9. I think most of the cast, actually.

24. Thought I should mention that K-9 is a Doctor Who spin-off.

I wonder if it takes place in Australia. Or is it just filmed there?

25. Excited to see the K9 is available on Hulu!

I wasn't expecting it to be, but I decided to check.

I'll definitely have to add that show to my list as well.

26. Felt overwhelmed by my list.

There's so much I want to see.

27. Started to watch an episode of Killing Time.

28. Continued to be preoccupied with the actors' skin and eyes on this show.

I keep seeing redness.

For example, in the scene I'm watching now, David Wenham has one very red ear.

His other ear is much less red.

29. Pleased to see that Nicholas Bell is in this episode.

I'll have to see if he has redness as well.

30. Didn't see any unusual amount of redness on Bell's face.

31. Saw that John Wood, the actor who plays Alan Bond, has redness on his face. It looks like a rash.

32. Wanted to say that I wouldn't usually point out the skin conditions of actors. It's just that on this show, it's so rampant.  It's like there was some kind of communicable illness that was passing around.

33. Wondered if David Wenham usually has the red eyes he has on Killing Time.

It's not something I've noticed before.

Could it be make-up and something to do with the cocaine use?

Is red eyes a symptom?

34. Found a website with signs of cocaine use.  Red eyes isn't listed.

35. Googled red eyes and cocaine. This website mentions blood shot eyes. I don't think that's what I'm seeing with Wenham.

I'm not sure, though.

I think of blood shot as redness in the whiteness of the eyes. With Wenham, it's more redness in the bottom bits.  I don't know the name of it, but it's where you'd put eyeliner.

It reminds me a bit of vampire make-up.  I think maybe the True Blood cast had eyes like that?

36. Looked at pictures of Wenham.  I'm seeing a few that have some pinkish in the eye area.

Even on Killing Time, he doesn't always have the red-pink eyes—just some of the time.

37. Saw redness now on Nicholas Bell.

Maybe it's just something universal to white people, and I never noticed it before.

38. Decided to watch some other videos and see if there's a lot of skin redness.

39. Had an idea.

If there IS more redness on Killing Time than most shows, it might not be because of make-up. It might be about there being less make-up.  Maybe the skin of us white people usually has red blotches, but on film and television, the redness is covered up with make-up.

Maybe Killing Time was going for a gritty realism approach, and so they used less make-up.

40. Decided to look at the skin of people on 12 Monkeys...just because I love it, and am going to grab any chance to watch a bit of it.

41. Saw a little redness but not as much as with Killing Time.

The make-up does look heavier. I think I'm on to something here.

42. Started to see more redness in 12 Monkeys.

Maybe I'm just noticing something I didn't notice before.

Tonight we're going to watch Fargo. I'll try to remember to look out for redness on that.

43. Watched a scene with very classical manipulation.

Denise Fraser (Diana Glenn) surprises her husband Andrew (Wenham) in Perth. He's been working there while she's home with their children in Melbourne.

Andrew is obviously not excited to see his wife, though he TRIES to fake it. I think the main reason is he has a lot to hide.  His hotel room is a huge mess from wild partying.

The Frasers go out for breakfast where the waitress is a bit flirtatious. Then some other woman comes up to the table and kisses Fraser on the lips. She doesn't know his wife is sitting there...or she doesn't care.

Denise kept her cool when seeing the remnants of the party, but she loses it at the restaurant.

Instead of being apologetic and acting ashamed, Andrew goes on the defense.

Some quotes from him:

Denise, I'm doing this for us.

I'm working my ass off.

Just understand I'm working.

Well, a little bit of faith wouldn't go astray.

What Fraser does is take a wife that's reasonably angry for reasonable reasons and tries to make her seem unreasonable.

If Fraser's manipulations worked, Denise might begin to see herself as a bitchy bunny boiler who doesn't support her husband, doesn't have faith in him, and isn't grateful for how hard he works.

What Denise IS, is a woman with a cocaine-addicted husband who has wild parties in Perth while she's at home taking care of their two young children.

44. Remembered reading something in George K. Simon's manipulation writings where he talks about the manipulative person using the tactic of saying, Okay, okay. 

Andrew Fraser says a lot of okays in the scene.

Simon says, When a person is determined to have his way but is not gaining sway with you because you’ve dared to call them on their aggression and you’re holding your own ground, they might feign the willingness to back-down, back-off, or accede to your call for change. This “okay, okay!” tactic is the disturbed character’s attempt to get you off their back by insinuating that they understand what you are asking and are willing to accede to it while they actually have no intention of changing their stance.

I think that's what Fraser was doing.

To me, it seems similar to when someone says something like, Alright! I'm sorry!  

These statements are really just code for,  Drop the subject. Leave me alone.

45. Saw Andrew Fraser being very dishonest.

Denise wanted him to come home. He wouldn't do that for her.

Then he lost the case with Alan Bond, didn't get paid, and was sent home. Instead of being honest about all that, Fraser acts like he made the CHOICE to come home to her. He acts like he chose his family over his job, which is not true.

I personally feel that's another trait of manipulative people. They'll have ulterior motives or reasons for the nice things they do. For example, a husband might tell his wife he's staying home from work because she has the flu and he wants to take care of her. She thinks it's really sweet of him, but then she learns he really stayed home because he wanted to catch up on his Breaking Bad binge watching.

Another example: A woman calls her sister and gives a whole speech about how she thinks the two of them should spend more time together.  The truth is all her so-called friends are having a party, and she wasn't invited.

I think an honest person would just call her sister up and moan about feeling abandoned by her friends. Then she might suggest that she and her sister go out together.

A more honest husband might say something like, Hey, I need a break from work, and I'm dying to catch up on Breaking Bad.  I'm going to stay home. That way I can also be there if you need anything.

46. Loved these lines from Liane Moriarty's Big Little Lies. As Jane looked around her, she felt that dissatisfied feeling she often experienced when she was somewhere new and lovely. She couldn't quite articulate it except with the words If only I were here. This little beachside cafe was so exquisite, she longed to really be there-except of course, she was there, so it didn't make sense.

I've felt that way before.

47. Felt grateful for the existence of the Moriarty sisters.

They're really good at expressing the stuff that's in my head.

48. Wondered about that certain feeling of not being there.

I think I get it when we go to a place, and we're not staying as long as I'd like.  Or we go to a place that I know we're not going to go often, but I wish we would go more often.

49. Thought that sometimes it's also a feeling of not belonging. Maybe it seems like everyone else are regulars, and I'm an intruding guest.

50. Started to proofread my post and realized I interpreted some of the Waleed Aly editorial wrong.

I was asking what bias has to do with someone's popularity.  But now I'm seeing that the bias accusation wasn't an answer to why Aly isn't popular enough. It's part of the answer to why Aly shouldn't win the Gold Logie.

I don't personally agree with the idea that a biased person shouldn't win a Logie. It's just now that I'm getting it clear in my head, the editorial makes a little bit more logical sense.

51. Thought about it more.  I think originally I saw the editorial as saying Aly's bias is one of the reasons why WHY he isn't popular enough. Now I'm seeing it as the editorial saying that the bias SHOULD be a reason why he isn't popular.  Because the Golden Logie is basically a popularity contest. It's voted in by the public.

52. Proofread some more and saw that I had planned to look for red skin blotches on Fargo.

We watched Fargo.

I didn't remember to look.

I do remember a lot of red, but that was blood.  I'm not sure about the skin. I'll try to remember to check tomorrow.

Read my novel: The Dead are Online

Returning TV Shows, Captain Cook, Extreme Danger, and Other Explorers

1. Dreamed a dream that involved a crazy woman wanting to force someone to eat the Prime Minister, and choosing socks that might be unseasonably wintery. Then someone how that dream morphed into a dream about watching old episodes of  Neighbours. I realize I might be watching Neighbours on Hulu. I'm wondering if it came back, and I didn't even notice.  I question what I'll do if it has come back. Will I immediately go back to watching it or wait until Random.org picks it for me? I consider that I can make it my next show, since I'm almost done with one of the ones I've been watching.

I'm not sure if the future-meal Prime Minister was Australian or not. I'm pretty sure it wasn't Malcolm Turnbull.

It might have been Julia Gillard.

2. Started watching an episode of Sea Patrol.

3. Saw from IMDb that Emelia Burns, from The Elephant Princess, is in the episode.

I've already seen her. I thought she looked vaguely familar but didn't put much effort into remembering where I've seen her before.  

4. Planned to start watching a Crash Course video about Captain Cook.  I'm doing it for our homeschooling curriculum.  I'm going to watch the video and make a Quizlet for Jack to do later.

I used to make Quizlets without watching the videos first. I would end up with questions that were not talked about in the video. Jack didn't like this. My argument was that I'm not testing him. The Quizlet is just another way of teaching him.  I'm giving him a broader view about the subject.

But then I decided to try Jack's idea—watch the video and make a quizlet off of that. It turns out it's more easier and enjoyable that way. (For me and him!)

I still try to give him (us, really) a broader view on things. We will often read other websites and watch other videos about the subject Crash Course is teaching us that day. 

5. Saw John Green celebrate because he's finally mentioned Australia and New Zealand. He says, Now you Australians have to shut up about how we've never mentioned you.

I wonder if there had been many complaints from Australians.

6. Saw Emelia Burns again, and felt stupid for not recognizing her earlier. 

7. Thought about how Sea Patrol is about Navy sailors working during peacetime. Yet, in every episode, their lives are in grave danger.

Is there really that much excitement in the navy?

8. Wondered about other jobs—such as firefighters and police officers. Are their lives often in grave danger? I don't imagine that's the case. I think many of their days would be mundane.  

Really. Everyday, each of us has a chance of dying. I'm sure that's the same for people who have dangerous jobs. But there are situations where death is much more imminent.  I picture those situations happening for peacetime military folks, police officers, and firefighters, but I don't imagine it's a daily occurrence.  

 9. Thought it might be unfair to say that the Navy on Sea Patrol is working during peacetime. Australia is at peace, but the navy is dealing with some island that's having a war.  

10. Finished watching the Crash Course video about Captain James Cook. There was very little said about Australia. Most of the video was about Cook's death in Hawaii.

11. Looked for supplementary stuff for our Crash Course history lesson today.

I think one of the things I'm going to use is a list of explorers who visited Australia before Cook. 

I'm pretty sure Jack already knows that Cook wasn't the first European to find Australia, but I don't think he knows the details.

12. Thought about why Cook is considered to be the guy who discovered Australia.

I think it's because he's the one who led to the British colonizing New South Wales. He was British, and the people who came eighteen years later were from the UK as well.  

But then again, Christopher Columbus is most often credited with discovering America, and he wasn't the same nationality as the main group that ended up settling there.

Really. Why is Cook given so much credit? Why are the others so often ignored?

Maybe it's just a basic case of one person getting more than their share of the glory. From what we've been learning, it seems to happen a lot in science, technology, and exploration.  

13. Looked at the list of explorers.

It seems a lot of them didn't actually land on the mainland. They landed on islands off the coast of Australia, and/or they mapped the coastline of the mainland. Maybe? I'm having a hard time understanding.  It seems to me, though, that they didn't actually get off their ship to hang out on the big mysterious continent. 

14. Saw that there were also a lot of shipwrecks.  

Maybe Cook is special, because he and his crew survived...well, at least the Australian leg of the adventure.  

15. Confused about William Dampier, so I Googled. What I was trying to figure out is whether he was the first European to step on the mainland.  

He was.

I think the reason he gets less credit than James Cook is Dampier landed in Western Australia. From what I remember, Western Australia became part of the nation of Australia a bit after New South Wales was part of the country.  

Actually...wasn't Western Australia the last to join the Federation? 

16. Consulted Lord Wiki.

He says I'm right. Western Australia was the last to join Australia.  All this joining the Federation stuff happened at the very end of the 1800's.  By then the story of Captain Cook and the First Fleet were over a hundred years old. The story was probably already engrained in people's brains. William Dampier was probably just some guy who discovered that area far away.  

17. Thought of all the extraterrestrials who are exploring Earth—kidnapping earthlings to study their anuses. Hardly any of us believe in them, and they're probably not going to get any credit for discovering us. They're probably part of some fringe group from their planet—ignored and ridiculed.

Then someday, some alien is going to come and make herself known to us.  Her face is going to be plastered on all our native magazines and all the magazines from her planet. She's going to get credit for being the extraterrestrial who first discovered Earth, and all the other past explorers are going to be ignored.  

It's a sad thing.  

18. Started watching the last episode of season two of Underbelly.

19. Watched Terry Clark (Matthew Newton) disprove the manta, only the good die young. 

I did feel a little sad for him when he had his heart attack. It looked somewhat scary.  

I imagine that it's a better death, though, than being murdered by another person. 

Maybe?  

20. Wondered why death has to be so painful and dramatic.

Isn't it bad enough that our life is coming to an end?

21. Decided maybe it's fitting since birth is also painful and dramatic.

22. Appreciated Underbelly for getting somewhat metaphysical at the end.

This week we watched a SciShow video about hallucinations, and it was extremely anti-metaphysical.  They pushed the idea that visitations from dead people, out of body experiences, and other such things are all just tricks of the mind. I wish they had provided a more open-minded viewpoint. I definitely believe in hallucinations, but I do imagine that sometimes it's something more.  

With Underbelly, a dying man is visited by an already dead man. It's ambiguous. You can believe what you want to believe—ghosts, or you can choose hallucination.  

23. Looked at SciShow's description of themselves. They say,  With equal parts skepticism and enthusiasm, we go a little deeper...without going off the deep end.

Yeah. That annoys me.

I'm not a fan of that type of skepticism. I think you can do science and talk about science without trying to crush spiritual and religious ideas.

24. Went to Random.org to find my next TV show.

It's more Underbelly!

A week or so ago, I wouldn't have been happy with that news. But by now I've grown to like the show.

25. Looked at the other Underbelly on Hulu. It's called Underbelly Razor, and it takes place in the 1920's.

26. Looked at the cast of the first episode of Underbelly Razor. There are a few names and/or faces I recognize.

I know Danielle Cormack from Wentworth and Rake.

I know John Batchelor from Sea Patrol.

I know Guy Edmonds from A Moody Christmas. Though I had to click on his name to see why I recognized him.

27. Saw that there's another Sea Patrol actor in the cast—Jeremy Lindsay Taylor.

28. Recognized Justin Rosniak's name, but couldn't remember what I knew him from.

It's Home and Away and Packed to the Rafters.

29. Saw Richard Brancatisano.  I know him as Migraine-boy from The Elephant Princess, and he was also on Reef Doctors.

30. Realized I recognized Anna McGahan's face.  I know her from House Husbands.

31. Clicked on Chelsie Preston Crayford's name even though I didn't recognize her name or face. It turns out I have seen her in something before. She was on The Code.  Now I remember her.

32. Went to the Triple J 2014 list.

My song for today is the 92nd song. It's "Love Me Less" by One day.

33. Started listening to "Love Me Less".

I like the beginning—the instrumental part.

The rest is okay, too. I don't love it, but I also don't dislike it.  

34. Wondered how Toadie (Ryan Moloney) is doing on Neighbours.

Is he still paralyzed?

I bet he is.

But I doubt he'll be for much longer.

I'm betting by 2016, he'll be walking again.

35. Thought it would be kind of cool if he's not walking again.

It would be horrible to wish a severe disability on a real person, but I think it's okay with a fictional person. Right?

Or maybe not. I'm feeling kind of bad about it.

Maybe it's because Toadie FEELS real to me. I want him to be okay again.

I like him.

For me, it's not so much about whether he walks again or not. What I hate is the idea of him spending the rest of his life depressed.  If he remains paralyzed, I hope he can adjust to it eventually and find some happiness.

Des Clarke, Unrequited Love, 30th Anniversery, and Fake Cancer,

1. Had a dream.  It's bedtime and I'm thinking about celebrity crushes. I have the idea that Kate Jenkinson is the kind of person that a lot of people have crushes on. I think of Kim Gygnall and decide that if I met him in real life, I'd probably develop a crush on him.

Before going to sleep, I feel compelled to follow my rule about reading one chapter of a book. The chapter I'm reading is titled "Drugs". It's about a woman who is trying to lose weight. Her method fails, so she decides to get into shape via weight-lifting. But then she learns that all the female weight-lifters she admires got that way by using drugs.

2. Dreamed I was in an Australian comedy. I don't remember it enough to explain it well, but it involved someone eating very old desserts. Maybe ice-cream? And we were trying not to get in trouble with the police. It was like we were trying to make ourselves look less bad than we were to the police, but instead we made ourselves look even worse than we truly were.

3. Dreamed that, I'm walking with two young Australians we know. I want them to come visit us in the US. So I whisper something to them— sort of like a subliminal message. I want it to influence their future decisions, but instead they jump on it at that moment.

I'm not positive, but I think what I whispered was chicken nuggets. Then they went into a cafe to maybe order the nuggets.

4. Read article about gay marriage bill in Australia. I don't fully understand it, but it doesn't seem very hopeful to me.

The good news is, there are eighteen people from the Coalition that support it. The bad news is, there are eighty-three that oppose it.

The thing is, there's a committee which decides the order that bills will be heard and debated in Parliament. The people in the committee right now are conservative and not supportive of gay marriage. To them, other things take priority.

I'm doubting gay marriage will be legalized while the Abbott government is in power.

5. Started watching some Neighbours.

6. Tried to find song played on Neighbours.

It's played while Imogen (Ariel Kaplan) is looking conflicted about Daniel (Tim Phillips) and Amber's (Jenna Rosenow) wedding. Some of the lyrics: Only God can forget all the bad things you've done...And you can't turn your back on the women you've become.

I'm not having luck finding it.

I think it's pretty, though.

7. Wondered if maybe it's Delta Goodrem singing, since she's guest-starring on the show.

I don't know her voice well enough to know if it's her or not.

8. Shocked and amazed and super excited! Des Clarke!  They have Des Clarke (Paul Keane) on Neighbours! He came back!  I didn't recognize him. I had no idea who he was until Paul(Stefan Dennis) said his name.

9. Thought that Paul Keane looks like a cross between Jason Segal and Dick York.

10. Learned that Paul brought Des to Erinsborough to scare Daniel (Tim Phillips)—weddings and marriage. He wants Des to talk about his own wedding fiasco.

I'm not sure if Neighbours began with the wedding or if that's just the first episode that was available to me on YouTube.  But that's where I came into the story. Des was about to get married, and the bride called off the wedding. From what I remember, Julie Robinson had something to do with that. She scared the bride away from marriage, because she had a thing for Des.

There was a stripper at the Buck's night. Daphne. She ended up moving in with Des. And then they fell in love.

11. Remembered there was another woman interested in Des; or at least she wanted Des to be a father to her child. The actress reminded me of Jennifer Aniston.

12. Saw Des telling the story to Daniel. The bride's name was Lorraine.

13. Excited. They showed a few flashbacks of the buck's night.

14. Thought that Paul Robinson reminds me of my dad in some ways. I've felt this way before, but I especially felt it in the scene where he lets Amber know that Imogen is in love with Daniel.

15. Annoyed at Amber's anger towards Imogen. She finds out Imogen is in love with Daniel and confronts her.

Yes, Imogen is in love with her best friend's fiancé; and that's not a great situation. But the heart wants what the heart wants.

It's not like Imogen pursued Daniel.

Well, she did kiss him once, but it was a temporary moment of insanity. She was very apologetic.

Imogen worked very hard to try to get over Daniel, and she tried very hard to support Amber and Daniel's relationship.

Maybe her only mistake was not confessing earlier when asked about her feelings for Daniel. But then again, bringing the love to the surface and out in the open might have caused a strain for Amber and Daniel's relationship. It might have been easier for everyone, if Imogen's feelings had remained a secret.

16. Imagined if Amber knew about Imogen's feelings, she'd be more careful about having Daniel and Amber spend time together.

On the other hand, if Daniel knew about Imogen's feelings, it might have made him start questioning things. Well, I have this one woman who loves me, and I love her. But now this other woman loves me...and well, I do enjoy spending time with her.

From some of my experiences, I have concluded that if someone has feelings for a person already in a relationship, it's best to keep it quiet. Just by speaking up, you might drive a wedge into the relationship. Or you might help an already existing wedge get larger.

Yes, it might be an ego boost to the object of your affection; but that ego boost might not be great for their already existing relationship.

17. Imagined I could find exceptions. For example, let's say someone is in a very horrible failing relationship. They're depressed, feel unloved, and seem suicidal. THEN it might be a nice idea to say, I just wanted to tell you I've been in love with you for the last five years.  Unless you know that the object of your affection is actually repulsed by you. In that case, you might make them feel worse.

18. Started watching an episode of The Librarians.

I'm going to try to finish the show today.

I don't know whether or not I'll keep season two and three on my to-watch list.

I think I'll take it off, unless I end up liking the show in the end.

I was going to take Kath and Kim off my list, but then towards the end it started to grow on me.

19. Thought that The Librarians had an interesting twist. I was surprised by it at least, but it could be because I wasn't paying close enough attention.

20. Started to watch another episode of The Librarians.

There are parts that I can relate to, but not in an amused way; more in a sad and uncomfortable way.

21. Started to like The Librarians a little more. I think the fifth episode was more interesting to me than the rest. Although it still didn't make me laugh. Or smile.

22. Started to watch the last  episode of season one of  The Librarians.

23. Realized that I'd probably prefer the storyline of The Librarians as a drama.

24. Finished watching The Librarians. 

I'm glad to be done with it.

25. Used Random.org to pick my next show.

It's Pirate Islands.

26. Looked at the cast of Pirate Islands.

I don't really recognize any of the names.

Maybe Brook Harmon?  That sounds a tiny bit familar.

27. Saw that Brook Harmon was born in the US, and I know her from Dance Academy. She played Saskia, the sort of evil dancing teacher.

28. Saw that Brook Harmon is also one of the stars of season four of The Secret Life of Us.

29. Saw that the creator of Pirate Islands is Jonathan M. Shiff. Shiff is also the creator of The Elephant Princess, Ocean Girl, H20: Just Add Water, and Wicked Science.

30. Hoped that I'd like Pirate Islands better than The Librarians.

I think I will. I liked The Elephant Princess...most of the time.  I just got a little tired of seeing Richard Brancatisano acting like he has a migraine.

31. Saw that Pirate Islands was filmed in Melbourne and Port Douglas, Queensland.

32. Started watching another episode of Neighbours.

33. Went to the UK's Channel 5 page about Neighbours. They confirm that the first episode of Neighbours is the first one I saw. It's the one with Danny having a nightmare and Lorraine canceling the wedding.

34. Saw from Lord Wiki that Neighbours premiered on March 18, 1985. The episode I just started watching is the one from March 18, 2015. So, it's the big anniversary show.

I hope it's good.

35. Tried to remember Tom Ramsey. I'm seeing him now on the show. I think maybe I saw some of his old episodes. Maybe he was kind of difficult?

36. Had  my memory helped by Lord Wiki. Tom was dating a woman, and Shane Ramsey accidentally killed her in a car crash. I remember that. Then Shane had problems with driving for awhile, which was hard since he worked as a limo driver.

37. Took a break from Neighbours to do some stair-walking exercising. When I do this, I have Spotify pick a song from me. It chose "I'm Not That Girl" from Wicked.

The song fits perfectly with the Amber, Imogen, and Daniel drama.

Blithe smile, lithe limb
 She who's winsome, she wins him 
Gold hair with a gentle curl That's the girl he chose 
And Heaven knows 
I'm not that girl

In Wicked, Elphaba is the one that's not that girl. But in the end, she is. She ends up with Fiyero; and Glinda is left behind.

Will the same happen with Imogen? Will she end up with Daniel?

38. Thought it was a shame that Kylie Minogue, Guy Pearce, and Jason Donovan aren't appearing for the anniversary.

Or maybe they are, and I just don't know about it yet.

Maybe I'll get a fun surprise.

39. Started watching another episode of Neighbours.

40. Felt bad for Imogen and Daniel. They're stuck in a well without food and water.

41. Thought that Amber has a little-girl kind of look, and she also kind of looks like an expensive doll.

42. Smelled the Russian Nesting doll that Jack got at the Sydney puppet store to see if it still smells like cherries.

It does.

43. Started watching another episode of Neighbours.

I want to see Imogen and Daniel get rescued. Though maybe that's not going to be until many episodes later.

44. Figured that Josh (Harley Bonner) comforting Amber is going to turn into sex, and that's how Amber ends up pregnant.

45. Loved the character of Nick (Damien Fotiou) in a cathartic way. He's so awful but makes himself out to be a hero, because he does important cancer research.

It reminds me of behavior I've encountered from certain people. They do good things, but then imagine that this gives them an excuse to treat friends and family like crap.

46. Wondered if I ever was a little shit back when I did volunteer work for Cystic Fibrosis. I probably was at times. I think I had that belief. Girl doing charity for seriously ill children=definitely good person.

I don't think I was that bad, though. I definitely wasn't evil like Nick.

I was probably over-focused to the point of being annoying, and I took on the attitude that there's no cause more important than fighting CF.

I think a lot of people, passionate about a cause, become that way. It's like Fight Breast Cancer! Fight Breast cancer!  Never mind that there are tons of other cancers and awful diseases out there.

47. Confused about Paul Robinson's leukemia. Is that for real? Or is Nick faking the whole thing?

I just re-watched the scene with Nick typing on the blood chart thing. I can't tell if he's recording the blood count levels or changing them.

48. Figured out that Paul's cancer is probably faked. Because earlier Nick was complaining that curing cancer wasn't important enough for Paul— when Karl (Alan Fletcher) explained, to Nick, that Paul does things that benefit Paul. So now Nick has made cancer a personal thing for Paul.

49. Disgusted by Nick's evilness. He's planning to give Paul chemotherapy, even though Paul is healthy.

I've heard of people faking their own cancer. But this is new to me—someone deliberately leading someone else to believe they need cancer treatment.

50. Hoped Paul would be smart enough to get a second opinion.

51. Forgot to mention that I started watching another episode....

And now I'm going to watch another one.

I'm majorly binge-watching today.

52. Wondered what's going to happen to Matt (Josef Brown)

I know he's going to die. But how?

The Hulu description says it has something to do with him kissing Sharon Canning (Natasha Herbert). I'm having a hard time figuring that one out.

53. Saw what happens to Matt. He didn't die from kissing Sharon. What happened is he was talking about Sharon to Brad (Kip Gamblin). A car came, and Matt heroically pushed Brad out of the way.

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