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Ōpaki

One of the new and wonderful things in my life lately is a Māori TV show called Ōpaki.  

It's one of the very few programs on the Māori TV apps that is available worldwide...vs. only in New Zealand or only in New Zealand and Australia.  

It works out, though, for me, because Ōpaki is a language-learning show, and that's what I'm wanting most out of the Māori TV app.

The show consists of three Te Reo Māori-learning guests being hosted in a house by Pānia Papa, a sports star who became a Māori language advocate and teacher.

During the show, they have simple conversations that are mostly too hard for me to understand.  Because although the three guests are beginners, they're farther along than I am.  But I do understand a little bit here and there, which makes me feel good.

Here and there, the show translates some of the vocabulary at the bottom of the screen. I feel some glory if I already knew the word.  I feel some gratitude if it's a new word.  I feel frustration and failure if it's a word I already learned and then forgot.  

Along with the conversations, they also play games and other activities to teach vocabulary.  For example, they played a game where one houseguest placed their set of objects in a certain way while instructing a second houseguest on how to place the same set of objects. Without either guest being able to see what the other was doing.

Jack and I used to play this game together when he was young.  But in English.

Anyway, the game on the show helps to teach the names of objects while also teaching direction words.

In the episode I've been watching today, there was a surprise knock on the door.

I don't know if it was a surprise for them too or just me.  Because I could understand very little of the conversation before the knock on the door.

The fun thing is, I recognized the guy at the door.  I wasn't sure if I was imagining it or not.  But soon I learned it was who I thought it was—Hēmi Kelly from the Māori Phrase a Day YouTube Channel.  

This crossover of two different avenues of my Māori-learning world brought me some extra joy.  I guess, because it kind of signified that this has become a big part of my life.  It's like...okay, I might not understand a lot of phrases.  But I do recognize some of the big characters of the Te Reo Māori Education world.  

Bethany Had No Love Handles

I’m sadly no longer watching Coronation Street full time, because Hulu stopped carrying it.  But I step back into Weatherford here and there, such as when having extra digital credits from Amazon or Cyber Monday sales makes temporarily subscribing to BritBox a good deal.  

Anyway… I’ve been catching up by watching sporadic episodes from the last few months.

One storyline has Bethany (Lucy Fallon) hospitalized with a stoma bag situation, because her discounted liposuction in Turkey went very wrong.  

Her Uncle David (Jack P Shepherd) confesses he might be partly to blame.  Bethany had mentioned to him that she was researching Liposuction for a story… and, I guess, seemed intrigued by it on a personal level.  

David had made a joke along the lines of her having extreme love handle issues.

Even though she didn’t.  And David didn't think she did. He was just trying to be funny, not realizing she had body image issues.

The drama reminded me of times that men in my family have made little jokes/comments that crushed my self-esteem.

It could be that they actually wanted to lower my self-esteem… take away some of my power to make themselves more powerful.

But it could have also been that they were totally joking and wrongly believed I had a ton of confidence about the issue and would have taken it in stride. 

I also worry that I may have jokingly-insulted people, at points in my life, believing that they had self-confidence about the issue and therefore would be amused rather than wounded.

I don’t want to preach that we should stop joking and teasing.  

Maybe we just need to be more mindful… 

Maybe clarify we’re joking… if we suspect the joke wasn’t received in the way we intended.

And....

Maybe if we tend to roast someone in most of our interactions, we need to surprise them with a compliment here and there.


My New Special Interest

I have a new special interest.

I've come to realize this is the first special interest I've had post Australia; and all the other things in-between that I believed were special interests were actually NOT special interests (see next post)

I'm not sure how to name it actually.

Technically we could say it's New Zealand.  But I don't want to, because it's very much not like my Australia obsession.

It's very different.

With Australia, it felt spiritual (and I still very often believe it is/was).  And I was obsessed with all of it—the land, the map of it, the history, the government, the people, the animals, etc.  I wanted to live there.  And "want" seems like an insufficient word for how I was feeling.  

With New Zealand, it's mostly the music and the language...and the Taika Waititi/Jemaine Clement filmmaking ventures.

It's kind of jumped around.

It started with us watching Legion and Tim and I both thinking that Jemaine Clement looked familar.  We IMDb'd and I saw/realized he was the singer of one of my favorite songs ("Shiny"); had major involvement in What We Do in the Shadows, and was part of Flight of the Conchords.  

We decided we should next watch Flight of the Conchords.  It was something we had both vaguely heard about though the years and had an ongoing sort of interest in watching it....someday.  Or at least that's how I felt about it. 

I had a very normal level of liking for the show during the first season and maybe for most of the second.  Then at some moment, somehow, I went from liking to obsessively loving.

After watching Flight of the Conchords, I had us rewatching What We Do in the Shadows, because A) Didn't realize Jemaine Clement was one of the stars since I hadn't been too aware of his existence prior to watching Legion  B) I couldn't remember what actually happened in the movie.

Then I had us re-watching the episodes of the TV show that had cameos of Taika Waititi and Jemaine Clement.

We next watched Our Flag Means Death.  Or maybe we watched that before What We Do in the Shadows?  I'm not entirely sure.

I loved  OFMD. I think it's the most romantic show I've seen in a long time.  I don't often have intense shipping-feelings these days. But with that, I did.  

Through doing decent IMDb research, I learned about the existence of Wellington Paranormal.  I find it odd that as people who watch and love What We Do in the Shadows, we hadn't realized the show existed.  Is this mostly about our ignorance? Not enough marketing?  Or just the over-abundance of content out there?

Anyway, we watched that too and very much enjoyed it.  

Meanwhile and after, I started diving into the music side of things. And with that, one thing kept leading to another thing and then another thing.

For example, through reading a bit about Brett McKenzie, I learned about the Wellington International Ukulele Orchestra and started listening to their music on Spotify. Also I listened to the Flight of the Conchords charity song, "Feel Inside (And Stuff Like that)".   Both of these things led me to learning about Brooke Fraser.  

I listened to McKenzie's new not-funny album and loved that.  Plus, I was delightfully surprised to learn he wrote the Muppet songs.  I never had much of an interest in seeing The Muppets Most Wanted but now have been loving the music.

I especially love the demo songs and really want to know if Brett McKenzie is doing all the different voices on the song.  If anyone knows the answer to that, please share your knowledge with me.

I listened to Jemaine Clement sing on the Rio soundtrack and learned he played the Cockatoo.  I think MAYBE in the past I was a bit bigoted against him. Because during my very steep obsessed-with-Australia years, I vaguely remember feeling cheated that the Australian bird was played by someone not actually from Australia.  It's not that I was some kind of purist.  I watched many Aussie TV shows and movies with Kiwi actors.  But I think probably the one thing that made me feel motivated to watch Rio was the Australian character.

Also while going down the Jemaine Clement music rabbit hole,  I ended up listening to the albums from the children's TV show Kiri and Lou.

Shit. The songs from that are SO deep and relatable.  It's very cathartic but sometimes also painful.  

I learned that the writer of the songs from that is Don McGlashan.  I've listened to some of his other music.  

Okay...then on a separate branch.

Meanwhile....

I became quite obsessed with learning te reo Māori.

I think one of my signs that a special interest is going to be a major one is I have some sort of resistance to it.  This happened here.

A few months back I had bought a lifetime account to the Drops language App.  I was using it to learn French, Danish, and Hebrew.  My plan was to do little bits of French and Danish and a lot of Hebrew.

And then I had this sudden strong desire to learn te reo Māori.  I resisted, because I felt I was already learning enough languages. Plus, I think there was the whole special-interest resistance thing that I mentioned above.  (Also I had worries about cultural appropriation which I think was actually racist and ignorant of me...I might go into that in a future post)

I gave in a little and made a rule.  Along with the music people mentioned above, I had also added a few Māori songs to my Spotify playlist.  My rule was that if Spotify Shuffle chose to play a Māori song for me; then I could do a te reo Māori session on Drops.  

I soon dropped that rule and added te reo Māori to my list of daily languages.  And it soon went from: I will do one session a day to: I will try to do many many sessions a day; plus listen to lots of music; plus watch learning videos on YouTube, and download other te reo Māori apps.

I also ended up adding another language to my daily sessions.  Because at some point, Tim asked if Hawaiian was similar to te reo Māori.  I decided the best way to figure that out is to start learning Hawaiian as well.  

In awhile, I'm going to temporarily drop French or Danish and start learning Samoan too. Because I'd like to see the similarities and differences there as well.  

This post has taken much up much more space and time than I wanted.  But in the future, I might do a post listing the apps and YouTube channels I've been using.  It will mostly be about the channels, because although I have downloaded four or five apps, I'm only using one for now.  (I mean besides Drops).  

If you are a person who, like me, has no Māori background and isn't in or from New Zealand, but you're learning te reo Māori, I'd love to hear from you.  And if that doesn't apply to you, I'd still love to hear from you.  IF you're not a bot advertising something.  If you're a lonely bot just wanting to talk...I'm here for that.

I still have more to say, although this is getting long. Sorry.

I probably don't want to go to New Zealand.  Ironically, Tim brought up the idea a few weeks before we watched Flight of the Conchords.  He told me Jack had mentioned going. I probably said something like, I hope you guys have fun.  Meaning I shall stay happily back at home.

My OCD has gotten worse through the years.  That along with my fear of vomiting and general travel anxiety has made long-long-haul traveling a no for me.

I had told Tim and Jack that they're going to have to do the via-west-coast international traveling without me, including Oceania, East Asia, and South East Asia.

I feel Europe is the farthest I can manage.  And even with that, I made things difficult. I managed to get to Copenhagen but had us spending a night in Boston and stopping in Iceland.

If time was not an issue, I would have us spend time in California; time in Hawaii, and then fly to New Zealand.  But I would feel weird about not going to Australia.  I would feel like I'm committing a huge, huge awful betrayal of my past self.

I guess if time was very much not an issue, we could do this super long trip where we spend time in California, Hawaii, New Zealand, and Australia.  I'd also maybe add in various South Pacific Islands.  

For now, though, we're talking about using our DVC points to go to Hawaii.  

So though I can't point to a manu in Aotearoa, I can do so in Hawaii.

I also don't want the anxiety and pressure of trying out my teo reo Māori abilities on actual people.  During some of my Instagram Zionism adventures, I ended up talking to a Māori Zionist.  I was about to type Kia Ora to him and suddenly started to panic...worrying that I didn't know how to spell it right.  Even though I've seen it written out a zillion times.  

So I think I'm just going to go through life using the language to talk to apps and...mostly just to myself.

I talk to myself all the time. It's lovely doing it in a second language.  

The last thing I want to talk about is that I at first thought it was very funny that I ended up becoming obsessed with New Zealand. 

There has actually been worse bigotry than the Rio thing.  For example, there was a brief time that I had this intense but sadly short term friendship with a woman in Australia. Though I thought she was wonderful and imagined I loved her (in a platonic way), I was a bit disappointed that she was actually from New Zealand and not only that, loved her home country much more than Australia.  (It's not why our friendship faded away, though)

I also found it quite hilarious that I jumped from one Oceania country to another. Though if it had been a direct jump, it would have been much less funny.  It would have felt more like an extension rather than the universe playing a joke.  

It's probably much less funny to other people.

Anyway, now...it also brings me comfort and joy, because there are a lot of connections between Australia and New Zealand, including with music and TV/film.   

I've often very much missed being obsessed with Australia. And New Zealand is helping to reconnect me.  

Though besides the NZ path, I also frequently reconnect with Australia via Neighbours...which I watch religiously.  And I very much enjoy listening to the Weird Crap in Australia podcast.

Speaking of podcasts, I also listen to The Wellington Paranormal Podcast.  Which shit...gives more to ramble about.  

Going back to the traveling issue....

I did have a tiny bit of me opening up to the idea of traveling to New Zealand...maybe with the help of lots of therapy and meds.

But today I was listening to the WP podcast and Mike Minogue told a terrifying story of getting food poisoning in Shanghai and vomiting copiously on the airplane. Vomit on airplanes is one of my biggest fears in life. And it's the main reason I don't want to do long flights. I want to avoid using airplane bathrooms, because I'm afraid there's going to be vomit cooties in there.  

Okay if that wasn't bad enough...I'm reading Jannette McCurdy's beautiful, amazing, wonderful book.  And today I read the chapter with her doing bulimia on the airplane.  I think it was fourteen times?

I feel that all this today is the universe telling me my ass doesn't belong on an airplane heading to New Zealand.  

  


Various Thoughts about our 2024 Trip to Disney World

1. It was very crowded, the most crowded we've experienced as our family of three.

2. Eventually what was once new and exciting becomes old and less exciting.  I enjoyed Rise of Resistance much less the 6th time I went on it than the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th time.

My reduction of enjoyment might not have been due only to becoming too habituated to the ride but also because I had gotten it into my head that I wanted to use the early morning low wait time to retry Rock-n-Roller Coaster. 

 Also, there was much less actor-enthusiasm from the cast members.  

3. After doing some research, I undid my vow to avoid Guardians of the Galaxy.

From what I read, the aspect that seems to cause the most motion sickness is the visual stimuli.  My plan was to go on the ride if we could do it with the virtual cue, and I'd close my eyes the whole time. I told Tim and Jack that I wouldn't pay extra to go on the ride, because it would be a waste of money to go on such a ride with my eyes closed the whole time.

Jack either didn't listen to what I had said, or he misunderstood me.  Or he was overexcited and pressed the wrong buttons.  He bought Individual Lightning Entries for all three of us. 

Thank Heavens.

Thank Jack.

I still closed my eyes the whole time.

The ride was one of the most fantastic experiences of my whole life.

I almost cried in the middle of it...not out of joy but out of sadness that it would soon end.

I later did actually cry.  Or maybe I didn't cry but just felt kind of depressed.  I can't remember exactly.

What was my problem?

It was the feeling that no other Disney ride could come even close.  So what was the point?

It was kind of similar to the feelings of trying to enjoy other books after reading Harry Potter. 

And yeah.  That's another reason why I was blah about Rise of Resistance.  It had been the best Disney ride...until Guardians of the Galaxy came about.

4. At one point, we had considered canceling our Hollywood Studios reservations for another day at Epcot. So we could go on Guardians of the Galaxy again.

Then we decided not to do that and ended up with the tentative plan of Jack using his Park Hopping ability to go to Hollywood Studios AND buy a Lightening Pass for Guardians.

Tim and I had made the choice not to get Park Hopping tickets this trip.

I guess there was that parental feeling of being satisfied enough to have our child have the wonderful experience even though we would not.  

Unfortunately that plan was thrown out the window, because Jack became ill by the end of our Epcot day and ended up going to neither Epcot nor Hollywood Studios the next day.

5. I regretted not going on Guardians of the Galaxy on my birthday trip in 2023.  In my ignorance, I had had absolutely no desire to do so. 

6. Tim and I sat together on Guardians of the Galaxy.  Jack sat in front of us with a very enthusiastic and friendly stranger.  She told us she had gone on the ride many times.  

When we were parting, she told us to have a magical day.  I realized she was probably an off-duty cast member.  It felt like a movie moment...you know when someone finds out the person they were talking to was actually God or an angel or someone with some kind of secret identity.  

7. I didn't join Tim and Jack on Tron.  I had planned to but changed my mind when seeing the ride vehicles.  I don't like lying prone or bending forward for too long.  It tends to make me feel unwell.  

8. I have stopped enjoying the slow/dark rides. Sadly.  

I am totally burned out.  

I go on them not for enjoyment but just out of a kind of pilgrimage/obligation kind of feeling.

What I've decided is that while I'm still healthy enough to go on thrill rides (and my travel companions are as well) I'm going to put most of my concentration on those.  

I'm thinking what I might do is not stop the slow rides all together, because that pilgrimage push is too strong to ignore all together (I still feel uneasy about skipping Spaceship Earth this trip).  Instead maybe I'll make a rule of one slow ride per park per trip.  

Not including Living with the Land for Epcot, because I HAVE to go on that ride every single trip, and I'd therefore end up never again going on Nemo, Spaceship Earth, The Mexico Ride, etc.

9. I'm not sure if Soarin should be considered a slow ride or thrill ride.

But I think I shall count it as a slow ride for my plan.

10. Russia was my favorite soda in Club Cool this year.

11. Back to Rock-n-Roller Coaster.  I had tried it many years ago and had felt an uncomfortable feeling in my chest during the launch.  

Since then, I've slightly considered trying it again.  After riding Guardians and being okay with that launch, my motivation to retry Rock-n-Roller Coaster was increased.

But while I had been alone for the rope drop the first three days, Tim joined me on the fourth, and I felt the need to let him decide which rides to go on first.  And by that...I mean the two or three rides we'd go on before the park got way too crowded and we'd stop with the rides, soak up the atmosphere, eat, take photos, and then make our exit.   

Tim picked Rise of the Resistance and Mickey Mouse.

Oh!  Also there was the fact that I had been to Hollywood Studios in 2023 and he hadn't gone since May 2022.  So I felt it was more fair to let him pick.

We did line up for Rock-n-Roller Coaster for our third ride...at that point when most waits have become quite long.

The wait time was posted for 90 minutes.  

I do like the experience of waiting in Disney lines but prefer lines that are 60 minutes or less.

Still. We decided to endure.

Unfortunately our efforts didn't pay off.

The ride closed down.  

There have been times, faced with that situation, where I have waited around for a ride to re-open.  

We didn't do that this time.  Instead we went to get lunch.

Since it was our last park day, I kind of regret that we didn't try harder to go on the ride.  

12. Rides I went on more than once this trip:  Expedition Everest and Living with the Land. With both, I went on alone during early entry and then again later with Tim and Jack.

13. I've become quite militant about being there for rope drop.  I now have this feeling that if I'm not there at least twenty minutes before early-entry; then there's actually no point in going to the parks at all.

I'm thinking these feelings are going to end up leading to some sort of recurring anxiety dream.  

14. We used Genie Plus for The Magic Kingdom.  I loved using it on my birthday trip.  It was much less great on this trip.  What I've learned is it doesn't help all that much when the park is very crowded.

Or it could have been that Jack had mentioned wanting to go on The Jungle Cruise. I used it for that which was had one of the longest wait-windows.  So by the time we were able to pick another selection, there wasn't much left. Because I didn't want to be at the park in the evening.  

I think Genie Plus is good if you plan to be at the park from morning to closing...or if it's not overly crowded and there are a couple of moderately popular rides you want to go on.  OR if there's a popular ride that you're highly motivated to ride.

Our motivation to ride The Jungle Cruise was due mostly to the fact that we hadn't gone on it on our last trip.  

And maybe the trip before?

15. If I was going to redo our Magic Kingdom Genie Plus experience, I would have used it to go on Big Thunder Mountain.

16. We ate at one table service restaurant all together: Tiffins.  I liked it, especially since they have a salad called The Land Salad that is made up of produce from The Land in Epcot.  I wish more restaurants had food that was labeled as being specifically from The Land.

Tim and Jack ate dinner at The Flying Fish together while I rested in the room. 

I don't much like going out at night. 

17. I had my beloved Lefse in Norway.  That might be a necessary every-trip tradition for me.

18. I have become much less excited about Disney snacks.  And since the loss of The Magical Express pushed us to rent a car, I had the idea of doing less over-priced Disney snacking and more fun room-snacking.

This is a change for me.  I'm usually wanting to limit the snacks we buy at the grocery store with the idea I want to use our calories (and tummy real-estate) for super special Disney food.  

We bought home a container of six delicious cupcakes that were...I think cheaper than one Disney cupcakes. 

We also bought bagels, crackers, cheese, apples, vegetarian nuggets, cookies, olives, etc.

19. One of my proudest food moments: I considered getting a Dole Whip before leaving the Magic Kingdom but realized I was just craving something fruity.  I decided to wait and have an apple when I returned to our Beach Club room.

And I truly think I enjoyed the apple more than I would have enjoyed the Dole Whip.

20. I actually didn't buy any food at The Magic Kingdom.  I ate some candy clusters I had brought from our room and also some olives.

We did make reservations to eat at the Jungle Cruise restaurant, but that got all messed up with the Tron Virtual Cue, and we had to cancel.

21. If I'm remembering correctly, the only park treat I bought and ate was the Lefse.

22. Outside the parks, though....

Tim and I got ice-cream twice; once at The Fountain at The Dolphin and another time at the Boardwalk ice-cream place.  

23. One of my favorite places at Disney World lately is The Swan and Dolphin.  I love how they look at night.

24. One of my favorite things to do at Disney World this trip (and my previous solo one) is walk around the Epcot Resort area while listening to an audio book.  

On the last trip, I listened to Never, Never by Serana Valentino.  

This trip I listened to King of Shadows by Susan Cooper.  

I also listened to an episode of the Harley Quinn and the Joker podcast.

It's hard to explain but I love the mix of audio books and podcasts with my own personal setting/experiences.

It's like both the place where I'm listening AND what I'm listening to becomes more special to me.

I was kind of blah about King of Shadows until I started listening to it while walking around the Epcot Resort area.  Then the book started feeling magical to me and the Epcot resort area became even more magical.

25. It turns out Jack has Covid.

And Tim is sick now as well...probably with Covid.

I'm wondering if I will join the club.

I hope not.  

26. Our song for Guardians of the Galaxy was "Everybody Wants to Rule the World".  Tim found a playlist of all the possible songs.  He played some of it for us as we drove back to the airport.  

I'm glad we got the song that we did and am thinking I might be dissatisfied if we get one of the other songs the next time we go on the ride.  

27. I might be sort of okay with "One Way or Another"

28. It's been four days since we went on The Guardians of the Galaxy ride.  

The feelings have kind of faded.  

I mean I've forgotten why I loved it so much.

I guess it's kind of like the way mothers forget the pain they felt while in labor.

It's like we remember in a cognitive sense but not emotionally/physically.  

It's almost like I'm confused and mystified by my intense feelings from four days ago.  Was it really THAT amazing or had I been overreacting?  

29. It's official.  Tim has Covid too.

I feel snotty.  It seems likely to be Covid but who knows....


 

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Some Photos from My 50th Birthday Disney Trip

I'm not in a very talkative mood right now.  But I told myself I was going to make photo posts from my trip, and I feel if I don't do it now, I'll end up never doing it.  Then I'll feel I took an excessive amount of photos for no reason.

I was originally going to make multiple posts with lots of photos.  I think instead I'm going to do this one post.

So...here it goes.


A smiley, friendly sun at 
Animal Kingdom Lodge
Chair fabric at Animal Kingdom
Lodge.
A shadow of a woman on concrete
Me at Disney Springs 
Tim at Saana. He was with me for the
first two nights of the trip
The many bread dips of the 
Saana bread service 
My first night alone I walked
around the Boardwalk and took photos
and listened to my audio book
Buildings like this, at night, remind me of
my special dreams that take place 
in what I call "Dream City" so
I'm kind of infatuated with them. 
Another place, at Disney, that gives me this
feeling is the city scene on the Mexico ride in
World Showcase.
Another picture from the night walk.
It's kind of become a special, magical
memory to me.  I was partly
there on the Boardwalk and
partly on a pirate ship with James Hook,
Smee, and Blackbeard.
Frozen was the first 
ride I went on this trip. 
Soarin' was funny, because
after the video where we are told
to take off our Mickey ears and stow other
stuff, a Cast Member (or was it via announcement?)
insisted that we keep our Mickey ears and 
other small things ON us. I guess there
have been too many cases of people leaving
small items under the seat. And Disney probably 
finally realized that Mickey Ear, glasses, hats, etc.
were NOT flying off people during the ride.

One of way too many photos I took
in the Living with the Land greenhouse.
There were many cast members
inside the Greenhouse setting
up little scenes and also working
in the science area. That was cool to see.
 I wish I had gotten
photos of that. Instead I got a photo of one
of the scenes they set up.
Epcot construction.
This is the best photo of Spaceship Earth
I've ever taken.  It might be the best I've seen.
It's probably arrogant to feel I deserve
some kind of reward. But...I do. 

Disney construction and random strangers.
Two things I like taking photos of. 
I was eating my Lefse and Rice pudding 
in Kringla Bakeri Og Kafe
when I suddenly noticed I had
a delightful butt view. 

A very cool plant at the Beach Club
Waiting for Rise of the Resistance 
to open in the morning. It had some problems.
A drone
Another drone 
I got many photos of the backside
of stormtroopers and Kylo Wren.
One thing about solo trips is there's
no one to stop you from spending your time
following Star War characters for an extended period of time
in an attempt to get a good photo of the front of them. 
Note: These guys move quite fast. 

Cast Members blocking the temporarily
closed Smugglers Run. They did the same 
thing at Rise of the Resistance, but I failed
to get a photo. They were very strict in a similar
spirit to the First Order cast members on the ride.
It was delightful.  Seriously, I think the quest to
get on Rise of the Resistance is just as exciting as the ride itself.
And I don't mean that as an insult to the ride. The 
ride is fantastic. But trying to get on the ride whether
by waiting in the rain, hoping it reopens or having a virtual queue adventure.
I think these will be some of my most favorite Disney memories. 



From Toy Story Mania.
Peter Pan was especially special to me this trip,
because I was reading the book below.

I choose my books somewhat randomly and luck had it
that I was listening to this through out my trip.
Well, I have a long list of authors and use random.org
to pick the author. I ended up with Serena Valentino who
writes stories about Disney villains.  I was about to say (because I believed it so)
that I had chosen Captain Hook. But now I'm thinking I didn't.
I think I used Random.org to choose which book to read. I'm horrible at making
decisions!!!!  Though later I read it's recommended to start with
the first book in the series. The Captain Hook one of the most recent. Oops.
If you look at this photo close enough, you will
see the little guy who decided that although it was fine for me to be 
at Disney World on my own, I shouldn't ride 
every single ride alone.  He kindly insisted on
staying with me for the entire duration of the ride.  AND I kindly moved to the
other side of the vehicle not wanting him to feel crowded. 

I got up very early that morning. I was the first and only person
at the bus stop. I was the only one on the bus. I was one of the first
in line at Magic Kingdom. Unfortunately, I wasn't one of the
first inside the park. Because I went through a fairly long round of
"Do you have lotion on your hand? Are you sure that's the finger
you used before?
 
Splash Mountain. It may be a bit racist.
But it is quite photogenic. I'm sure the Princess and 
the Frog will be as well. Hopefully the racists will
boycott the new ride, and the lines will be short.  
I usually don't have much of a desire to ride 
Pirates of the Caribbean.  The Captain Hook
book made me want to ride it twice. Though that 
ended up not happening, because it shut down when
I was in line the second time. 


Towards the end of the day, this popped up.
I texted to Tim: Hope Jeff Goldblum
doesn't have to eat his words. 
I was delighted, though, because getting
this message made the ride breakdown 
feel like a big deal. And I was in the line 
when it had the breakdown.  I felt
like I was part of history.

I used to have a crush on this guy. Now I
pretty much despite him. Thanks to Serena Valentino.

One of many photos I took of this guy. 
Tom Sawyer Island. I didn't go there
but liked the house and liked how
the photo turned out.
I meant to go on at least twice but only
went on once. I'm okay with that, though.

Carpet at Space Mountain.
I love Disney carpet so much. 
Statue of Walt Disney and Mickey Mouse in front of Cinderella's castle at the Magic Kingdom
All in all, I had a really good time. 

 I'm hoping we will still be able to take whole-family trips to Disney World or Disneyland. But I think there will also be more solo Disney trips for each of us. Jack took one last summer. I took this one. Tim is going in February. 

 I tend to have post-Disney-trip regrets. 

My only one this time was that it seemed to be a birthday trip only inside my own head.  I don't think anyone else got the memo.  

No, I wasn't there exactly on my 50th birthday. I came home three days before...the reason being I didn't want to be there during the Thanksgiving week. But I had talked about it, and seen it, as being my birthday trip. 

The only time my birthday was mentioned, though, was by the TSA agent, at the airport, just before I went through security. He noticed the date on my ID and wished me a happy birthday. I was delighted and imagined it would be the first of multiple mentions of my birthday on the trip. But it actually ended up being the last. 

I didn't want any big surprises or an excessive amount of attention. I guess I would have wanted just a small acknowledgment. Like a text: Hope you're enjoying your birthday trip!  Or a commemorative photo.  

I briefly considered...maybe longed for...one of those celebration buttons. But I feared that would lead to awkward, embarrassing, and/or lonely moments. 

Note: I did get several birthday wishes on my actual birthday from family, friends, and relatives. I appreciate that. 

I think the mistake I made is depending on others to acknowledge that my Disney trip was a birthday trip. I should have done something myself to acknowledge it— bought myself a special birthday souvenir or labeled one of the many Disney treats I ate as a birthday treat. 

In the end, though...being there was a gift in itself. And another gift is the prospect of future trips. 

Next time I go, whether alone or with others, I'm going to make a point of labeling something I do or eat as a birthday thing. Even if it's months away from my birthday. 

(I guess I ended up being talkative, after all.  If anyone is surprised about that...they're either new here or haven't been paying enough attention) 

Edited to add (1/1/2021)-Was looking at old texts and saw that one of my sisters DID mention my birthday in texts!!  I'm not sure how I missed it.  



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Eleanor Roosevelt and the Jews (Part 7)

If you want to read from the beginning of this overly long project, start here.



I've been searching through Eleanor Roosevelt's My Day column and reading the ones that deal with Jews, Israel, Palestinians, etc.

For this post, I'll be looking at 1955.

* * *

Holy shit.

So...for 1954, I ended up with 17 column posts.

For 1955, there are 33!

Thirty-two of those mention Jews or Israel. And then one mentions Palestinians.

No, it's not that Eleanor Roosevelt never thought about or wrote about Palestinians. It's just she usually referred to them as Arabs.

Now I'm going to go through and see if there are any I can eliminate. There may be posts where she just quickly mentions going to a Jewish event.  Or if she doesn't say anything I find particularly interesting, I'll skip.

One thing I saw, while quickly going through, is that in 1955, she traveled back to Israel.  I saw a few columns labeled with Tel Aviv.

* * *

The good news is I was able to eliminate four right off the bat, because they were doubles.  

They probably included both the word "Jew" and "Israel".  I search for the words separately.

I went through and closed the window for the columns where Roosevelt briefly mentions attending a Jewish or Israel-related event.

I'm left with 19.  That seems like it should be more manageable than 33.

* * *

The first column is dated February 14, 1955.  Valentine's Day.  And also my nephews birthday, one of my sister's wedding anniversary and the other sister's first-date-with-her-husband anniversary. 

Roosevelt says that during the past week, she had lunch with a woman she knew from the United Nations (Zena Harman) and one of the Israeli consul people (Esther Herlitz).

Lord Wiki knows of both these women, and I see they are written about in other places.  So I added them to my list of possible future posts.

Anyway, if I'm understanding things right, Roosevelt met with these women as preparation for her upcoming trip to Europe and Israel.  She told them and also her column readers that her reason for the trip was to gather insight for two articles she was planning to write about Israel.

She doesn't specifically say that this is the reason she met with them.  It could be that she met with them for other reasons and her upcoming trip was one of a variety of topics.

But since all she mentions is the conversation about her upcoming trip and she doesn't refer to them as friends, I'm guessing that was the purpose of the lunch.

I just realized something, though. Roosevelt says that she told these two women that the trip was entirely a business trip.

Why did she feel the need to tell Harman and Herlitz this...AND her readers?

Was someone pressuring her to have exciting adventures?  Go to a theme park?  Spend a day at a relaxing spa?

Or maybe people were criticizing her for traveling?  Did taxpayers help pay for her travel?  Did she still have to use Secret Service?

I just Googled and ended up learning that the whole presidential Secret Service thing began under FDR.  I had no idea!  I'm not going to read the article right now...but here's the link if anyone is interested.

* * *

I've decided I'm not going to go down a rabbit hole about why Roosevelt was insistent that her trip was business-only.

But maybe clues will pop up somewhere. Somehow.

Oh!  Maybe it was just about glorifying busyness.  Roosevelt's self-worth might have been tied up tightly with whether or not she was being productive.

*.* *

Here's some really sweet few words from Roosevelt.

I saw my granddaughter, Mrs. Van Seagraves, off on the train for Carbondale, Illinois, on Thursday afternoon late and was very reluctant to see her go. Having had my young niece, Mrs. Edward Elliott, with me in New York for five days and then my granddaughter for five days has spoiled me completely.It is much fun to have young people around the house. Even though a good many people may come and go at all times, it is not quite the same as having someone really staying with me and thinking and planning each day together at the breakfast table.

Okay.

So now I have another theory.

Maybe the niece or the granddaughter (or both!) were begging Roosevelt to let them come with her to Europe and Israel.  She reluctantly said no, explaining she was going to be too busy. In order to make sure they believed her about it being a strictly-business-trip rather than a rejection, she wrote about it in her column.

It's probably why she also said those super sweet things in her column.  Not that they weren't true. But she probably wanted to make extra sure, they got the message that she loved them.  

I'm also thinking that if Roosevelt did do some fun, frivolous things in Europe or Israel, it's probably not going to be in her column.  She probably took those memories with her to the grave.

Though, I get the feeling that Roosevelt is the kind of woman who wouldn't do the fun, frivolous things after telling everyone it was just-a-business trip. I think it would make her feel too guilty.  

* * *

Roosevelt's March 7 column deals with UN stuff and refugees.

I think this might be the first time that Roosevelt uses the term Palestinian.

She says, For instance, a separate group looks after the Palestinian refugees because they have full rights of citizenship in the Arab countries.

I didn't know that. 

Is it still true?

I'm going to read something from the Human Rights Watch website—"Human Rights Policy on the Right to Return"

Before reading, I asked Lord Wiki for some quick gossip.  He says people have criticized HRW for having an anti-Israel bias.  I shall keep that in mind as I read.....

* * *

I started reading and then realized I have no idea when this was written.

There's no date.

BUT at the (whatever) time...most of the 1.5 million Palestinians have citizenship and are well integrated socially and economically, although some 278,678 are still living in camps.

Lord Wiki is helping me out.  He says that in 2014, there were 2.18 million Palestinians in Jordan.  Around 370,000 live in refugee camps.  

Wow.

Lord Wiki also says that Jordan is the only Arab country where Palestinians are fully integrated.  

I'm going to go back to reading the Human Rights Watch thing.  I'll try not to let it bother me that I don't know when it was written.  Or maybe there will be some hints.

Well...1963 is mentioned...as in the past.  So I know it's sometime after that then.

The article says: In Lebanon, in sharp contrast, hundreds of thousands of Palestinians are stateless and over half live in overcrowded camps. The right to work is severely restricted, and massive poverty has become the norm.

Why do we hear so much about the mistreatment of Palestinians in Israel but rarely hear about their mistreatment in Lebanon?

Or maybe things are better for them now in Lebanon.

I got another date, by the way.  

1982.  There's a mention of an Israeli invasion.  Invasion is a pretty weighted word...which makes me think maybe there's some merit to the idea of HRW being anti-Israel.  Although I can't say the word isn't deserved.  I have no idea what happened.  

BUT....then HRW says:

Initially the response of host Arab states to the incoming Palestinian refugees was to offer them refuge on the assumption that it would be temporary. When it became obvious that the problem would be protracted, the policies of Arab states toward the refugees changed, and the initial sympathy was coupled with an insistence on Israel's ultimate responsibility for them. As a result most Arab governments strongly opposed resettlement and naturalization of the refugees. Instead, they adopted policies and procedures aimed at preserving the Palestinian identity of the individuals and their status as refugees.

This is the kind of thing I've heard from Zionists. So...I feel it leans more towards sympathetic-towards-Israel.  

One of the biggest Zionist talking points is that Arabs/Muslims have SO much land and Israel is just a teeny-tiny, itty-bitty country.  Why can't the Jews have that little piece of land and be left in peace?

Another thing I've heard is that Arab and Palestinian leaders want Palestinians to be perpetual victims, because it makes the Israelis/Jews/Zionists look bad.  

Here's more from the article: 

For example, as the Palestinian liberation movement gained momentum, this created political and sovereignty tensions within some host countries. This was further exacerbated by attacks on Israel and Israeli citizens carried out by Palestinian guerrillas from the territory of those host countries which then bore the brunt of reprisals from Israel - often resulting in deaths and injuries to the local civilian population.

I'm not sure if this article is the black sheep of HRW.  But it doesn't seem to have an anti-Israel bias to me.  It seems to come down pretty hard on Palestinians.  

Ah....saw more dates.  The latest is 1996.

I was just reminded again that I'm an old lady.

Because I was thinking: Oh, 1996. So, this is a recent article.

* * *

My feeling after reading that article is Palestinians are treated like shit by many people. Yet Israelis seem to be the sole target of their wrath. AND the wrath of all the passionate supporters of Palestinians.

It's kind of like if, with all the antisemitism in the world, Jews concentrated all their wrath on Germany and Germans and ignored all the other countries and people who have wronged them.

And the Germans led a movement that purposely murdered six million Jews!!  

Israel is far from perfect but they are even further away from being Nazis.

If Jews can spread out their outrage beyond Germany, I think Palestinians can spread their outrage beyond Zionists. 

* * *

I wonder which country has been the best for Palestinian refugees.  Which country has the most thriving Palestinians.

I'm doubting it's anywhere in the Middle East.

Maybe Europe?  The United States?

I tried Googling various things to find the answer.  When I Googled one thing (maybe wealthy Palestinians), I spotted an article about Chile.  I didn't read it, because I wasn't sure it would have the answer I was looking for.  I kind of had doubts there'd be an answer.

But then I ended up with Lord Wiki's page on the Palestinian diaspora.  

He lists 19 famous Palestinians.  Five of them are Chilean.  

Famous people aren't the only people who thrive, though.  So it doesn't completely answer my question.

But it might be a hint towards the right direction.

I just glanced up and saw Chile is also the place with the largest Palestinian diaspora outside the Middle East.   

* * *

I'm thinking I should get back to Roosevelt.

I'm going to move onto March 16.  That's one of my niece's birthdays!

 Roosevelt's trip has begun.  The column is labeled as being from Rome.  

Roosevelt says they drove to Cambous which has a camp for children who are brought over from ghettos of Morocco.

I did some Google-mapping and Googling.  Cambous is in France.  

I should have read the first lines of Roosevelt's column more carefully. Although it's labeled as Rome, she says, The night train from Paris to Montpellier was a comfortable trip and we arrived at 7:30 A.M. 

Why is Rome mentioned then?

Maybe she was in Rome at the time of writing/posting?

Anyway, on the map I saw that this Cambous place is in France. And Googling led me to seeing it's near Montpellier. It's some kind of archaeological site.

* * *

Roosevelt talks about the camp.

There's a castle involved. She says it's used for administrative and classroom purposes.  There's also a girl dormitory and a boy dormitory with sixteen kids each and a monitor to guide them.

I'm getting the idea these kids might be orphans?

Roosevelt writes: 

After three or four months at this camp the children are prepared to proceed to Israel. A few children, however, must stay much longer because when they arrive they are emotionally and physically so upset that they require special care. Some of them are sent to Switzerland, but all of them know that they are preparing to go to Israel and become citizens of their own country.

I was thinking there was only 32 children at this place.  Then I read: 

Most of the youngsters have come from large families and horribly crowded conditions. Some of them have unbelievable case histories. All 200 of them, however, ate in the big assembly hall with the guests when I was there, and you could not help thinking that on the whole they were a very bright-looking group of children, healthier and more normal than you would have expected.

It's not sixteen kids per dormitory but sixteen kids per dormitory building.

And I read the first part wrong.  It's two boy dormitories and ONE girl dormitories for each group.

And the groups are determined by particular religious observation.  

It seems odd to me that they're divided the same among each group.  Each religious group has exactly 32 boys and 16 girls?

I'm wondering if kids were pushed into the wrong religious groups in order to get the numbers to fit perfectly.

Maybe I'm making too much of this.

Maybe Roosevelt was just being approximate.

* * *

I've spent like 10-15 minutes trying to get more information about these camps.

It's been a struggle.

Finally, I ended up with Lord Wiki.  He has an article about the migration of Moroccan Jews to Israel.  It's not a happy picture. 

Lord Wiki says they experienced racism from Ashkenazi Jews.

He says: In 1950, the immigration office in Marseilles handling prospective North African immigrants wrote that "these abject human beings" would have to be kneaded to shape them into Israeli citizens.

And he also says: Complaints were made about the influx of 'orientals', 'human refuse' and 'backward people'.

This is making me think that those kids in the dormitories were NOT orphans but children taken from their parents in order to reshape them.  

It's happened to brown and Black children in the Americas and Australia. So I wouldn't be surprised to know it had happened in Morocco.

* * *

Well, I just finally paid for a newspaper subscription!

I talked about planning to do this awhile back.  I think it was when I was doing the Mengele post?  I kept running into the you-need-a-subscription-blocking-things.  But I managed to keep finding sites where I still had some free articles left.  

So....

Lord Wiki had a link to where he was getting the quotes I quoted above.  It was from Haaretz, and they wouldn't let me read the article.

Haaretz is a left-wing newspaper in a country that learns right, so I'm quite glad to support them.  Plus I want to support journalists, period.

Also, since I'm tending to blog about Jews and Israel lately, Haaretz will probably be a very valuable resource.

I've gotten only a month subscription, by the way.  The price for a year seemed a bit daunting.  Although now I'm seeing it would save me $38 dollars.  But that's only if I keep paying for and using it for a full year.  If I end up using it a lot this month, I'll cancel and re-order the year subscription.  Maybe.

Anyway....

The article that pushed me to buy the subscription is called: "We Saw Jews With Hearts Like Germans': Moroccan Immigrants in Israel Warned Families Not to Follow" by Ofer Aderet.  

Ouch.

The guy who compared Jews to Nazis was a soldier for the Israeli Defense Forces. He wrote the sharp words in a letter to his family, suggesting that they stay in North Africa.

I wish it was just one disgruntled soldier.  But Aderet reports that there are many similar letters in the archives.

Another soldier wrote: The European Jews, who suffered tremendously from Nazism, see themselves as a superior race and the Sephardi [Mizrahi] Jews as belonging to an inferior one”

The Polish Jews seem particularly offensive to the Moroccan Jews. One soldier said, The poles control everything.  

So if Jews want to join in on the Jews-control-everything trope and not target themselves, they can specify Jews of a different nationality. 

Another Moroccan Jew said that Polish Jews see Moroccans as savages and thieves.  

This is far from the first time I've heard about white Jews being racist.  When I was younger, though, I was fed the fairytale that Israel is the wonderful Jewish homeland that not only welcomes Jews from every country but works hard to go out and rescue these Jews.

I wish that fairytale was true.

Maybe someday it will be.

* * *

Now I'm seeing a third complaint about Polish Jews.

I'm starting to wonder if maybe the Moroccan Jews called all white Jews "Polish".  

* * *

Aderet says 70% of the soldiers (whose letters were examined) wished they could go back to Morocco.

That's disheartening.

* * *

It seems Haaretz didn't always lean left. Or it was a type of left-wing that is quite different from what left-wing is today.

Aderet reports that, in 1949, a Haaretz reporter went undercover in an immigrant transit camp and then published an article where these things:

This is an immigration of race such as we have never before known in Israel..We have here a people at a peak of primitiveness. The level of their education borders on absolute ignorance, and even graver is [their] incompetence at absorbing anything intellectual

Only slightly do they surpass the general level of the Arab, Negro and Berber inhabitants from their places [of origin]… They are completely subject to primitive and savage instincts..What can we do with them? How can we absorb them? Have we considered what will happen to this country if they became its citizens? One day the rest of the Jews from the Arab world will immigrate! What will the State of Israel look like and what sort of level will it have if it has citizens like these?

It's so horrible to me that people whose people have been a victim of racism can turn around and be so racist themselves.

 * * *

I'm moving onto Roosevelt's March 17 column.  She's still at the camp.

She writes that the children have to carry their own water, because when they go to Negev in Israel, they'll have to do the same.

Roosevelt writes:

To illustrate some of the fears and superstitions these children come with, let me tell you the story of one little boy who arrived a week ago with his brother. He told us there were nine children in the family but six had died, and his mother said that she would lose all the children if they stayed with her, so he and his brother had been sent away. He had a watch on his wrist that his father had given him as a parting gift and he said he would keep it carefully. One little brother, aged 7, was left behind, and quite simply this little boy said: "He stayed with my mother to die."

If six children die in a family, I wouldn't say it's superstitious to worry that more might die.

* * *

I imagine some people pointing out that Moroccan Jews were treated just as bad or worse in Morocco.  I don't know the history yet, but I figure there's a reason they left Morocco.

The thing is, though...people shouldn't be in situations where there are multiple groups in the competition of who's-treating-us-worse.

Wouldn't it be a step up for humanity if each marginalized group was marginalized in only one country.  Then everyone could just happily immigrate to all the countries that will welcome them with love and acceptance.  

* * *

I'm hoping to find most of the rest of 1955 columns uninteresting, because this post is already long enough.

I'm thinking I might just finish with the trip to Israel and then for the rest of the posts....just provide links in case anyone wants to read.

* * *

In her March 18 column, Roosevelt writes about going to a place called Camp Grand Arenas.  It's where Jewish Moroccan families stay until the next boat comes to take them to Israel.

I Googled the camp, and there are actual results.  Since this post is long enough, I'm just going to add it to my list of possible future posts. 

 * * *

In her March 23 column, Roosevelt met with the wife of the President (President of Israel?) Mrs Ben Zvi. 

I just Googled. It turns out Israel has presidents.  I had no idea.  Lord Wiki says the role is mainly ceremonial.

Mr. Ben Zvi was one of the presidents.  He had the job for the longest time—from 1952-1963.

Anyway...Roosevelt says that Ben Zvi kept telling her that American Jews need to come to Israel.  Roosevelt writes:

I took it for granted that she wanted them to come and visit, but I found that she meant they should come and stay here. This seems to me a little more than I can ask, for we don't want to give up our American citizens. But I do think there could be a far greater exchange of visitors and Israel would welcome more people who would want to come to work for one or two years on some special project.

It's nice of Roosevelt to say that she doesn't want to give up American citizens.

See?  This is the position people should be in—where both countries want you.

How nice it would be if both the Jews in Israel AND all the Arab countries were fighting over Palestinians?  I mean fighting over having them rather than fighting over who has to take them.

And wouldn't it be nice if Moroccan Jews were fought over by Moroccans and Ashkenazi Jews.  What if the letters home from soldiers read: Mom and Dad, I know life is fabulous in Morocco.  But you should try living here!  People are so nice!

* * *

In her March 24 column, Roosevelt writes about her meeting with Mr. Ben Zvi.

He reiterated what has been said so often before, namely, that Israel's representatives are ready to sit down at any time to try to negotiate a peaceful settlement with its neighbors.

I'd have more faith in these potential negotiations if there was less racism.  

Maybe I'm being unfair, though.  Maybe the president and his crowd were less racist than those in the military.

Maybe the military was extra racist?

If there was (is!) widespread racism in Israel towards other Jews, I think that needs to be fixed before there can be any hope of there being peaceful relationships with Palestinians.

No. Racism can't ever be completely fixed.  But I think it can be reduced.

Or maybe not.  That's probably too optimistic.  Looking at what's happening in the United States. As some people try to become less racist, it seems this is making other people more racist.  

* * *

I wrote the above yesterday afternoon and later started thinking it goes both ways.  As people become more racist and more outwardly racist, I think this is pushing the other side to become more strongly anti-racist.

* * *

In her March 25 column, Roosevelt talks about immigration in Israel.

She writes: 

Some of these problems we have known in the past in America when our immigration was heavy. As we all know, children adjust rather quickly to new surroundings and become more or less easily absorbed in the life and customs of their new country. Many parents, however, cling to their old customs and thus there is a rift between two generations. They are trying hard to meet all such problems here, but it is no simple matter.

In some ways, this applies to families who aren't even immigrants. 

It's hard to keep up with all the slang, all the various acronyms, the social media platforms that keep popping up.

(And I'm sitting here thinking is acronym the right word?  Like for things like TBH and OMG. Am I embarrassing myself by not knowing the right word for all this?!)

I can imagine how more challenging it would be if there was also a whole new language to learn, one that the kids are learning in school and us struggling to catch up.

I wonder, though, if the Internet has made language-learning more accessible to immigrants?

* * *

I would hope a political influencer today would avoid using the phrase cling to their old customs

I think in the 1950's, the melting pot idea was preferred over a salad bowl/stew kind of thing.

Well..I mean.a left political influencer.

I think many right-wing influencers would still push for a melting pot.  And they would actually be a step up from those who want to restrict any new ingredients from getting into the pot.  I mean besides potatoes, rice, milk, sour cream, cottage cheese....

* * *

March 26.

Roosevelt talks about meeting with cave dwellers from North Africa.

This is a prosperous village. It was established five years ago for 120 families. Each family has six acres of its own, plus owning in common 250 acres of orange groves and 250 acres of avocado groves. Most of the families are large, each having from eight to 10 children, and since education is compulsory they go to school until they are 14 years old. After that, most of the youngsters go to work to help support their families.

I think this was in Israel.  But I'm not positive.

She says they went to visit the cave folks after visiting a training institution in Pardessiya which is in Israel.  She doesn't describe traveling, so I'm guessing the caves were in the same area.

Roosevelt says that the main industry for the community is rugs woven by the women.  But they were also working towards depending more on agriculture.

She met the head man of the village. He spoke Hebrew, Arabic, and Italian.  

I wonder if most people in the neighboring areas were also from North Africa.

And that got me thinking...or hoping...maybe the Ashkenazi racism towards Moroccan Jews wasn't universal.  Maybe it was more common in certain places/communities.  For example: The Defense Forces.

This is probably wishful thinking on my part.

* * *

In her March 28 column, Roosevelt talks about visiting Youth Aliyah Ramat Hadassah, Szold Village.  

She says the village is a screening center for 225 youth Aliyah centers.

The place held about three hundred kids who would spend a month or two there.

I'm guessing that many of these kids were orphaned by the Holocaust.  

Roosevelt writes, Some of them have no parents, and many at first understand no language which is spoken by the workers.

Why were kids WITH parents coming there...without their parents? 

Was Israel making it easier for kids to come alone rather than with families?

Were they separating children from their families in order to quicken the whole melting-pot process?

* * *

Hadassah has a page about youth aliyah.

The program is still in place.

It kind of sounds like their version of fostering.

They say:

Nearly a third of Israel’s children live in poverty, according to a 2020 report by the National Council for the Child in Israel. In addition, more than 450,000 children suffer from high-risk situations such as physical, sexual, and emotional abuse, learning disability without access to proper resources, or a lack of basic rights.

Youth Aliyah sets at-risk children in Israel on the path to a successful future, and since 1934, over 300,000 young people from 80 lands have graduated from Youth Aliyah.

That seems like a lot of poverty.

What is it here in the United States?

The United States Census website says there are two measurements.  One puts the child poverty percentage at 5.2% and the other 15.3%

Both of those numbers are much less than 1/3.

The Statista website has Israel at 22.2% which would be closer to 1/5...or 1/4.  

They show the United States being not so far behind—21%.

The three best countries?  Finland, Denmark, and Iceland.   

* * *

Getting back to Hadassah and the Aliyah stuff.

They talk specifically about Ramat Hadassah Szold.

It was found in 1949 for refugees from Yemen and young Holocaust survivors.

It's still in action, providing assistance to both immigrants and Israeli-born youth.

The Hadassah website says: 

Special programs at Ramat Hadassah Szold include high-tech precision tool making, animal therapy, horsemanship, and Jewish study.

These programs combine to provide a strong foundation of psychological strength, vocational preparedness, and Jewish literacy.

That sounds nice.  

Hopefully programs like this are more about supporting young people and their families rather than pushing assimilation or equating poverty with child abuse.

I live in a state where parents can be investigated for child abuse if they provide medically-recommended trans-affirming healthcare.  That along with all the times in history that children have been removed from homes for the purpose of assimilation and exploitation has made me a bit weary of interventions.  

BUT sometimes interventions are needed and sometimes the services provided are actually decent.

I'm hoping Ramat Hadassah Szold is one of the good ones.

* * *

In her March 29 column, Roosevelt writes about getting a tour of Haifa with the city's mayor.  There were playgrounds, clubs for children, children orchestras, and lots of rose bushes.

It sounds lovely.

* * *

In her March 31 column, Roosevelt writes about medical care in Israel. 

The hospitals here have been integrated with the Public Health Service, and a type of community service has been worked out that should prove quite valuable to both the community and the doctors. The hospital is in the background for use when it is really needed, but a young doctor and a nurse are assigned to an area in which 250 families live. They provide all medical care, with the help of occasional "specialist" visits, which include dental and psychiatric work.

That reminds me of soap operas (and other TV shows) where one doctor seems to be in charge of almost all medical care. 

I guess it's a reality for some places and communities. 

I love the idea of a small town doctor who knows and cares about everyone...where the patients are also neighbors.  

 * * *

Roosevelt speaks very fondly of Ben Gurion in her April 1 column.  

She seems very impressed by him, writing: Mr. Ben-Gurion typifies...the pioneer in Israel, a man who felt he must live on the soil and make things grow and be as self-sufficient as possible.

If you're wondering what I left out with the dot, dot, dot....it's just another person she named who, she thought, had similar qualities.

I thought the quote looked better without the second name.

But now I feel it looks like I'm trying to hide something.

* * *.

Roosevelt talks about visiting various communities—a settlement of new arrivals from North Africa, a new city in Beersheba, and a village of Indian Jews from a place called Cochin.

Plus, they visited some industrial type projects.

I wish the negative stuff about the Polish mistreatment of Moroccans weren't true.

The stuff that Roosevelt writes about is so hopeful and lovely.  

I like the idea of various kinds of Jews moving to a new homeland—working together and helping each other.

The good stuff is probably true to some degree.

* * *

Just as a reminder: The events Roosevelt talks about don't actually coincide with the publication date.

I noticed that, though she talks about more of her Israel adventures, in her April 2 column, the location is listed as New York.

Then I looked back and saw that New York is also listed for April 1.

I went on my Washington Post app to see if locations were listed at the beginning of articles.  They are.

Well...I checked two or three.

I guess it's a writing custom?

Do most publications do it?

It seems kind of unhelpful if the place written about doesn't match the place where the writer is at.  

I just checked more articles in the Washington Post, and some do NOT have locations.

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Anyway....

On April 2, Roosevelt writes about meeting with forty women in Israel.  She writes:

They were able to tell me of their efforts in this council to prevent duplication and to integrate all the women coming into Israel. They realize, of course, that there is a tremendous amount of education to be done, but they are making every effort to bring the change about as quickly as possible.

I'm not sure what duplication refers to.

As for integration...hopefully it was at least somewhat about sharing a variety of cultures rather than pushing one way of life onto others.  

That being said, although I'm all for multiculturalism, I think some amount of shared culture is nice.

It's like with TV.  It's wonderful that there are so many TV shows to choose from.  There are so many shows available now that you can have a group discussion where for every TV show one person mentions, all the others respond with Never heard of it.

But it's nice that there are a few TV shows, that if one brings them up, almost everyone in the group will say something like Oh I heard that was good!  or  We watch that too!  or We tried it. It's not my cup of tea.

To have a shared culture, we don't need to have all watched Game of Thrones.

We just need to know that it exists, and it's a TV show. 

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I'm having (extra) mental health issues.

I'm not sure I want to continue with this project....which is upsetting, because this was bringing me lots of joy and a big sense of purpose.

Now I just feel really blah about it.  Not just the Eleanor Roosevelt posts but all of it.

I think I need to take a break for a couple of weeks and then figure out what to do.

I probably am going to quit Eleanor Roosevelt, though.

Right now it's mainly my OCD, phobia issues, anxiety, social issues/self esteem that are causing me grief.  But also, I think I have a touch of Eleanor Roosevelt burn-out.

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This is all bad timing, because I just bought the Haaretz subscription.

I tried telling myself it's fine. I can just read it in a non-researching way.  But when I think of reading it, it makes me feel unhappy.  I fear it will be a reminder of the shitty state I'm in—being passionate and excited about a big project and then suddenly feeling blah...and lost.

Adrift.


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