Try not to panic. Is that even possible?

I've had an uneasy feeling about our upcoming trip to Australia. No, it's not about being picked up by the backpackers express or being bitten by a funnel web spider. It's not that kind of fear. It's more like my college dreams--the ones where the end of the semester is coming up, and I realize I've never attended class. I'm not ready.

I feel unprepared.

I didn't feel like this the last time. I think the reason is the past trip was very last minute. We bought the tickets mid August and went in December. There was a sense of excitement and disbelief. There wasn't as much fear about getting everything wrong.

This time we bought the plane tickets in May. We did the hotel stuff in September. We were good and planned ahead. We relaxed.

But I've had this nagging feeling--the same feeling I get in my dreams.

A few weeks ago, I was looking through my saved emails and saw our flight itinerary from Tasmania back to Sydney. The itinerary wasn't in the email. You have to download it. I tried and it said this file is no longer available. I didn't worry too much. I figure Tim had a copy of everything.

Then today, Tim came upstairs to ask me which airline we're using to get out of Tasmania. The way we ended up doing it is we're using one airline to get there and one airline to get back. Tim had the information for the first airline but not the second. He said I must have it.

We looked through my mail and found that awful email in which the information is no longer available. I felt a touch of panic but also a little bit of relief. At least now, we knew what airline we were going on. We had no idea of the time we're leaving though. Tim fortunately was able to do a search, and we pulled up the information.

Then Tim asked me if I had the information about the Holiday Park in Canberra. I looked through my saved emails. Nothing! Crap. I couldn't even really remember talking to them. Did I not make reservations? Had I assumed Tim did it while he assumed I did it? Our only hope was that I had forwarded the emails to Tim and he saved it.

Luck was on our side!

We are good in Canberra.

We know our Tasmania flights.

I guess my lesson here is to be better about saving my important emails. I probably should just make sure to save EVERYTHING that is related to our Australia holiday.

We're usually more prepared than this. Maybe we're too prepared, and this is what makes us panic. We probably wouldn't have these feelings if we were the type of people who head to their destination without reservations.

Oh wait. I forgot. You know how the whole panic filled conversation began today. Tim got an email from our airline from Sydney to Hawaii. They changed the dates on us. WTF? I've heard of changing times, but dates? I mean it's not that I wouldn't love an extra day in Sydney. But we're going to have to find a hotel for that extra night, and I don't know. I find it a bit odd. Maybe it was a mistake. Tim says he's going to call them. I can't help but think it's fate intervening. Perhaps our destiny dictates that we stay for that extra day.